I hate my college.

[WhopperKing1]

I'm at a 2 year college right now. 1st semester is over. I haven't made any friends at all, can't go up and talk to people. I can't join clubs because I have a fear of being rejected by people. People think I don't exist and I feel like someone is spreading a rumor about me. I knew I chose the wrong college to begin with. I just wish that next time, I'll make the right choices. I mean I could've been at a 4 year university living in a dorm right now. But I don't know, most of the outgoing people have already made their friendships except me. I still feel like it's too late to start over again and make new friends. I know people are never gonna like me at all, I can guarantee it. I haven't seen any loners sitting around not doing anything on campus. The only loner I see around campus is myself. 

[Cuchculan]

That is your opinion of yourself. Nothing to say that others see you like this at all. With any kind of anxiety disorder it can be hard to want to make friends. To let others into our world. But it is never too late. I am not sure if there is a career guidance person at your college? Someone you can talk to. Explain you are not involved in anything at the college at all. You don't see your life going anywhere at all. They will help you set out a plan to direct you in the right direction. It is not begging for help. That is what these people are there for. Through them I am sure you will meet other people. It is all about putting yourself out there. To sit about and accept things as they are will mean you don't to meet people at all. The choice is yours to make.

[Health-Scared]

Hi whopper,

I recently quit college for similar reasons. I was studying beauty therapy and was experiencing panic attacks because of some of the things that I would have to do and have done to me. I was terrified that people would find out I was having them and what they'd think of me. I always felt that people were talking about me, saying untrue things about me or plain out being nasty behind my back. I didn't want to be friends with anyone because I didn't trust them not to use my weaknesses against me or to talk/laugh about what I say with other people.
One day, I had a panic attack in front of one of the girls and my paranoia exploded. I wasn't able to handle any of it so I quit. Told no one I was leaving until a week later and I only told the head lecturer. After I left, I realised that I had purposefully alienated myself because of my anxiety. I highly doubt I could have made friends but at the same time I see that some of them had actually been nice and in time a friendship could have developed. I let myself be alone because I was scared. Are you going to do this too? I believe you are better than this. I guarantee there are other "loners" around, you just have to look around. Ps, some loners sit in crowds =] good luck!

[shakymcgee]

Oh my goodness. I can guarantee you that you are your worst critic. I had the same social anxieties in college, so I really did my best to take advantage of the social situations that I was forced into for class activities. Next time you are partnered with someone or in a group project, try to talk to the people you are working with. They cannot reject you, because they literally have to talk to you in order to do well, and you might end up meeting someone you enjoy. It is a risk free scenario. I made two friends in college. Both were accidental because I was partnered with one, and happened to have 3 classes in common with the other. I think you would be surpised to know how many people feel like you, but maybe are just better at hiding their loneliness. I liked Health Scared's comment that "some loners sit in crowds". That is bang on. People will like you. Not everyone will like you, but nobody is that lucky. What makes me most concerned is how little you like yourself. The more you work on that, the more people that will be drawn to you, I promise.