Hi! New here and i would like to share my CRAZY "HA" stories! let's talk?!

[bittersweetlife]

HI! i'm new here and thank God! i found this site at first i enjoyed reading some posts of others and i can relate to their situations and now i decided to join so here it goes...

I've been suffering from H.A. or so called "Hypochondria" since i was a kid (i was 10 or 11 i think?..) when this classmate of mine told me that my life expectancy is short because she told my that the lines of the palm of my hand is short and i know it's crazy!! and i know it's a childish fears! HEHE stupidest childish fears ever!

Here goes my current crazy "Hypochondria" story:
Back in August 2012 i noticed that my left knee hurts and it started swelling and i had stiffness and immobility and what pop outs in my mind is BONE CANCER! and i was freaking out as hell!! until when i researched about swollen knee (yeah! i googled it.) and one that fears me was bone cancer! and i was really scared because my beloved aunt died of that disease! and i was crying to my mom telling i might have that disease! and she just told me "Ohh please your just being hypochondriac!!" until i ordered my mom to make an appointment to a orthopedic doctor and until the doctor told me it was only a MENISCUS TEAR that causes pain, swelling on my knee! i know it was crazy! but one thing that pop outs on my mind "What if he was wrong?! maybe it's a "misdiagnosis!!" And now then Sept. 2012 i had this "Hodgkin's Lymphoma" or just simply "Lymphoma" scare cause i had this very small lump on my left armpit and it kinda hurts when i touch it! (YES! i googled it again!..) other than that i DON'T have any symptoms like night sweats, weight loss, unexplained fever, itching but what really worries me that back in late 2009 (well that was over a years ago!) me & my friends had night gimmick and drink a few beers until i developed a sharp pain under my ears! and now i am really anxious and depressed! i don't know what to do! i don't know if i should tell my mom about this! i was scared because what if i'm not going to achieve my dreams/goals? and seriously this situation is really affecting my studies and i am taking BS-Entrepreneurship in college this really affect my studies! This really sucks! Until then the small lump on my left armpit disappeared and felt calm and then i now fear Diabetes cause i had this frequent urination all the time and feeling tired all the time (maybe just because i am suffering from anxiety!) because my mom had diabetes and it runs on my mother's side well to be honest i was not really scared of that because come to think of it Diabetes is controllable and manageable unlike cancer! So here we go again this frequent urinations scares me a lot of things that it could me Bladder cancer!! Kidney failure?!! WTH!! (YES! googled "frequent urination" again!..) and now my mind keeps thinking my abdomen hurts and everytime i pee i am always wishing myself "No blood in urine2x!" and yeah i'm officially Hypochondriac and CRAZY!!?. and Nov. 2012 my right leg start to hurt like sore and it hurts when i bend or move it, and i am convinced to myself i might have a bone cancer.. again!! and i was driving crazy! Late Nov. 2012 i experience some slight headaches and slight light headedness and now i'm convinced i might have a Brain Tumor! so then YES!! i googled "brain tumor" and when i read the symptoms i experienced this muscle twitching! so yeah i am really convinced i might have a tumor in brain! but sometimes i know that random short time muscle twitching is caused by anxiety/stress and yeah i am stressed/anxious!! and other than that i am convinced i had High blood pressure because of my headaches! and talking to myself "Please be high blood pressure not brain tumor!" and now developed some pressure behind my eyes, nose and behind/above my head! so yeah i was convinced again it could be brain tumor!  And now at this moment!! 2nd week of Dec. 2012 the small lump on my left armpit came back and this time it's two!  i freaked out! well it's really small and sore to touch. yet still not developing any symptoms like night sweats, itching, fever! but still convinced i might have Lymphoma!! HUHUHU i'm really scared!  i'm freaking out! and yes i googled about lymphoma again and read some patients story about their diagnosis, one said "i had this dull pain on my left underarm" and after i read that  my armpit slightly hurts but as of now it doesn't hurt anymore.. maybe my mind just making this up! and then my back starts to hurt but it doesn't really that hurt! it's like it hurts when i think "it hurts" but when i'm busy i don't get any pain.

i can't take this anymore! i'm only 18! this really ruins studies/my plans for the future! i don't want to end up like those in the movies who died young! NOOO! i want to achieve my dreams someday!

Please someone can comfort me and i would really appreciate it! 
Well guys i've got a question?  does scratching your armpits can cause your glands to swell? well i really love scratching my armpits in the morning! Does anyone experienced this come and go small swelling sore to touch lump in your armpits?

Please someone respond to my question! 

Sorry for the long post hehehe.

THANKS! 

[csmith7]

I don't have an answer to your question but i can assure you you will not die! its all anxiety. there are hundreds of anxiety symptoms and never ever ever google! google is your enemy!

[crazy_pants]

I empathize with your situation because I, too, had a classmate read my palm some 13 years ago and proclaim my life line was broken; hence, I would lead a tragically short life. I promptly told her she was full of it, but that was probably the first time someone had ever really hinted at my mortality in any real way. Regardless, her faulty clairvoyance stuck with me; perhaps because it was a sort of traumatic experience. Being about 14 years old at the time and just starting high school, I was impressionable and branching out into a broader social circle. I now realize that it was probably just notable as one of my first experiences outside of my routine group of friends, and my first real taste of "crazy," though I hate to label anyone as such.

The anxiety is perilous and stress-filled, I know. Symptoms come and go, and each little blip on your health radar screams "Incoming!" It doesn't always have to be this way. First, do the logical thing and see a doctor for a routine checkup. Having a benchmark for your health is paramount to knowing how well you're treating yourself and establishing any steps you can take to lead a healthier, and thus more resilient life. Know your cholesterol levels, know your blood pressure, your heart rate. Get a feel for your lung capacity. Having a grasp on the basics of what actually keeps you alive day in and day out goes a long way in helping you be comfortable in your own skin, without fear of symptoms. The more you know about your health, the healthier you will feel. Doubly so when you start to exercise and see noticeable improvement in your physique, mental acuity, and stress levels.

Being an athlete in my school days, I've had plenty of x-rays and even a CT scan of my head (complained of balance issues, doctor suspected a concussion - no signs of any danger - this was 10 years ago). The doctors don't warn you of the side effects because the side effects are negligible. As was mentioned previously, plenty of everyday objects impart some degree of radiation upon you. The sun being the most culpable entity (now's a good time to remind you to limit your time in the sun without proper sunblock - and, another mind-at-ease technique is to get a skin screening every year to eliminate the fear of skin cancer. Totally painless, and you can check yourself occasionally. Don't go overboard and document the life of every mole and freckle you can find. That's a fruitless endeavor. Skin lesions are easy to spot, and doctors are very cautious to remove even the minimally suspicious ones; it's an easy procedure and is highly preventative. Trust me. Given your age, that's the one and only cancer I would be at all concerned about - and it's 100% preventable. This is not something to freak out about. It's empowering to know you can control this type of disease. Use that.)

Trust your physicians. If you feel they're giving you the brush-off, get a second opinion. It's your right, as a patient, to do so. Find a doctor who cares and with whom you can relate. Use your friends and family as a resource in this case. I've been lucky enough to have several doctors over the years who are thorough, understanding, and patient.

Finally, a suggestion about your mental state. Seek professional help. Talking to someone who knows how to manage your pain is paramount. Also, find a way to express yourself perhaps spiritually or more contemplatively. Calm meditation and relaxation, massage, just enjoying the quiet of yourself within nature are very stress-relieving activities. One thing I remind myself of is that the more I create stress in my body, the worse off my body is for it. In other words, if you raise your stress levels by fearing illness, you're actually inviting illness by decreasing the body's immune response and raising your blood pressure. Do some reading about meditation and try it out. It's not the same for everybody, but since I've been suffering anxiety, it's helped a great deal.

I feel your pain, and I wish you the best. None of my advice is medical, as I'm not a doctor, but rather is a group of things I've done to try to help myself through these times of pressure and uncertainty. Be strong, and you will come out victorious over your fears.

[bittersweetlife]

I empathize with your situation because I, too, had a classmate read my palm some 13 years ago and proclaim my life line was broken; hence, I would lead a tragically short life. I promptly told her she was full of it, but that was probably the first time someone had ever really hinted at my mortality in any real way. Regardless, her faulty clairvoyance stuck with me; perhaps because it was a sort of traumatic experience. Being about 14 years old at the time and just starting high school, I was impressionable and branching out into a broader social circle. I now realize that it was probably just notable as one of my first experiences outside of my routine group of friends, and my first real taste of "crazy," though I hate to label anyone as such.

The anxiety is perilous and stress-filled, I know. Symptoms come and go, and each little blip on your health radar screams "Incoming!" It doesn't always have to be this way. First, do the logical thing and see a doctor for a routine checkup. Having a benchmark for your health is paramount to knowing how well you're treating yourself and establishing any steps you can take to lead a healthier, and thus more resilient life. Know your cholesterol levels, know your blood pressure, your heart rate. Get a feel for your lung capacity. Having a grasp on the basics of what actually keeps you alive day in and day out goes a long way in helping you be comfortable in your own skin, without fear of symptoms. The more you know about your health, the healthier you will feel. Doubly so when you start to exercise and see noticeable improvement in your physique, mental acuity, and stress levels.

Being an athlete in my school days, I've had plenty of x-rays and even a CT scan of my head (complained of balance issues, doctor suspected a concussion - no signs of any danger - this was 10 years ago). The doctors don't warn you of the side effects because the side effects are negligible. As was mentioned previously, plenty of everyday objects impart some degree of radiation upon you. The sun being the most culpable entity (now's a good time to remind you to limit your time in the sun without proper sunblock - and, another mind-at-ease technique is to get a skin screening every year to eliminate the fear of skin cancer. Totally painless, and you can check yourself occasionally. Don't go overboard and document the life of every mole and freckle you can find. That's a fruitless endeavor. Skin lesions are easy to spot, and doctors are very cautious to remove even the minimally suspicious ones; it's an easy procedure and is highly preventative. Trust me. Given your age, that's the one and only cancer I would be at all concerned about - and it's 100% preventable. This is not something to freak out about. It's empowering to know you can control this type of disease. Use that.)

Trust your physicians. If you feel they're giving you the brush-off, get a second opinion. It's your right, as a patient, to do so. Find a doctor who cares and with whom you can relate. Use your friends and family as a resource in this case. I've been lucky enough to have several doctors over the years who are thorough, understanding, and patient.

Finally, a suggestion about your mental state. Seek professional help. Talking to someone who knows how to manage your pain is paramount. Also, find a way to express yourself perhaps spiritually or more contemplatively. Calm meditation and relaxation, massage, just enjoying the quiet of yourself within nature are very stress-relieving activities. One thing I remind myself of is that the more I create stress in my body, the worse off my body is for it. In other words, if you raise your stress levels by fearing illness, you're actually inviting illness by decreasing the body's immune response and raising your blood pressure. Do some reading about meditation and try it out. It's not the same for everybody, but since I've been suffering anxiety, it's helped a great deal.

I feel your pain, and I wish you the best. None of my advice is medical, as I'm not a doctor, but rather is a group of things I've done to try to help myself through these times of pressure and uncertainty. Be strong, and you will come out victorious over your fears.

Thank you so much! This coming August 2013 i will celebrate my 1 year Anxiety Hypochondria thing

[waterspirit]

What is so weird is that a classmate of mine as well told me I had a short lifeline on my palm, and I also have a TERRIBLE fear of bone cancer too.  Recently I have a fever and weight loss that I know are rationally due to anxiety and stress, but my irrationality gets a hold of me and a certain ache in my thigh I have had for a while turns into the "C" word when it is paired with my other "symptoms".

I often don't believe my doctors, but I believe the Internet, which is obviously a huge problem.  I have many symptoms other than the ones I listed above like toe numbness and burning pain, throbbing in my legs, to shaky hands, thinking my speech is weird, sensations of being " outside" my body and so on.  I seem to pick and choose my symptoms day to day, but I always go back to the bone cancer which I know is ridiculous!!!

And one of the weirdest things is that if I choose not to obsess overused for a while I will start picking at my pets and diagnose them with rare and fatal illnesses as well.

Like i say all the time, I am only 19 years old but i have died 1,000 times.  I have wasted so much time worrying and obsessing. It is a horrible cycle that has caused me panic and depression which I soon hope to break.  I personally am working slowly towards being better and I hope to see a therapist soon. 

[bittersweetlife]

What is so weird is that a classmate of mine as well told me I had a short lifeline on my palm, and I also have a TERRIBLE fear of bone cancer too.  Recently I have a fever and weight loss that I know are rationally due to anxiety and stress, but my irrationality gets a hold of me and a certain ache in my thigh I have had for a while turns into the "C" word when it is paired with my other "symptoms".

I often don't believe my doctors, but I believe the Internet, which is obviously a huge problem.  I have many symptoms other than the ones I listed above like toe numbness and burning pain, throbbing in my legs, to shaky hands, thinking my speech is weird, sensations of being " outside" my body and so on.  I seem to pick and choose my symptoms day to day, but I always go back to the bone cancer which I know is ridiculous!!!

And one of the weirdest things is that if I choose not to obsess overused for a while I will start picking at my pets and diagnose them with rare and fatal illnesses as well.

Like i say all the time, I am only 19 years old but i have died 1,000 times.  I have wasted so much time worrying and obsessing. It is a horrible cycle that has caused me panic and depression which I soon hope to break.  I personally am working slowly towards being better and I hope to see a therapist soon.

Thank you so much for your post! and now i fear Leukemia! and hey your 19 years old? i'm 18, so we are Teen Hypochondriacs! 
Have a good day! May blessings came upon you! :)