Hello guys and girls,
In the beginning of last December I had my first panic attack. It was terrible and I really thought I was going to die. My heart was racing, my head was light and I was in a complete panic. It was the most terrifying experience I ever had. After 20 minutes or so it got better and the terrible feeling was gone. A few days later I had a second attack while trying to go to sleep. After that I got really scared for my health and I cut off my bad habits - smoking 2-3 packs a day and having a drink everyday after work. It took me one year to feel a lot better, a year that brought a lot of changes to my life - I found my soulmate, got married, I am waiting for my first child to be born in a few months. I went through taking clonazepam, 5-htp and all other possible supplements out there and finally I realized that everything's in my head and all I need to do is learn to control it. This was two months ago. Since then I am trying to weed out checking my pulse all the time, worrying for each and every pain I feel, thinking about life, about it's ending and worrying about my loved ones without need. Little by little I started feeling like my old self. I started to challenge the anxiety - when I feel an attack is coming, instead of running away or trying to avoid the situation I try to jump in it and prove to myself that nothing is going to happen and that everything is coming from my head. I am a person that always tries to be positive and I am always trying to find the positives in everything, no matter how negative it is. So here's what my anxiety gave me :
- A healthier lifestyle. No more cigarettes, no more coffee, no more alcohol, no more fried stuff, no more fast food
- Finding my soul mate - my anxiety made me change the apartment that I was living in when it first happened, and one thing lead to another :)
- I realized that I can and I need to take it easy. I found a way to be more positive at work and do more while being stressed less.
- I ditched the people that make me anxious
So this is my story. I haven't had a full blown panic attack in 3 months now and I wish everyone that has this terrible problem achieves what I achieved and more. My advice - try to keep it cool and repeat to yourself that everything is in your head - because it really is. Try to look for the positives of your anxiety. It is your body trying to tell you, to teach you something.