I saw an older post about this but no one has posted in a long time and i really wanted to talk about this
I do believe my anxiety turned out to be a blessing in disguise.
A few months before my anxiety started to control my life i was doing drugs.
I had done crack, cocaine, meth, and quite a few different pain killers, along with anxiety medication like xanex and klonapin to get high.
I can say i enjoyed doing these. I remeber even feeling like i really needed them for some reason whatever it may have been at the time. I also was around a few people that i was very very close to and they were also using, so to me it was okay to want to get high. I remember likeing the feeling from a few too much than i should have, i also did each of them multiple times, some more than others. But about 8 to 10 months after i had tried them for the first time and continued to do them. I started having panic attacks, at first and for awhile i didnt associate the drug to my anxiety but now having not done any since i was diagnosed with GAD, to get high that is i am now on anxiety medication, I have come to believe that if i hadn't started having my panic attacks i might have become an addict.
After i stopped using or rather around the time i stopped using my very best friends started using heroin, which i never tried, nd i first hand witnessed the drug ruin theyre lives and put them through the worst hell i have ever seen anyone go through. I lived with them i saw it every day. And it effected my life in the worst kind of way, i never even touch the drug and it had a tremendous affect of my life.
So looking back now i have to be thankful for that happeneing when it did, because there is no telling where i would be today if my anxiety hadn't peaked back then. Ans as crazy as it sound, believe me i know it sounds crazy but i am thankful for it now. I am still battling with my anxiety but i can still live my life more so than i believe i could if i had chosen that path.
It might be a contradiction because i am now on anxiety medication that is addictive but i dont take them to get high i even take a significantly lesser amount than i am perscribed. I just believe i am so much better off trrying to beat this than trying to battle addiction.
if your still with me thank you so much for reading and if anyone else has a story like this or comment i would realy love to hear them
God bless and i hope evryone has happy holidays
shining some light on this life changing situation