Hi:) Welcome....know you're certainly not alone in your struggles:)
All that Sixpack said, too:)
Yes, do NOT google....you've already learned how bad it is for HA peeps. It's very compelling as we feel we are gonna find that little bit of info that will ease our worry. Almost never happens that way, though. We don't stop until we are freaked out, typically. And, most importantly, HA peeps have an absolutely, terrifically AWFUL and DISMAL history of self-diagnosing....we are wrong time and time again. And, we simply cannot put what we are reading, frantically, online into the OVERALL context of our health. The 'need' to google is fueled on by our anxiety....keep in mind that our HA is NEVER a protecting force. We feel we are 'protecting' ourselves. Not true. All we are doing is embracing actions and habits that help keep us locked up into cyles of fear. We have to learn how to embrace the good habits and actions and mindsets....and ultimately acceptance and then managment of our mental health challenges. It is so very much possible for us to live well, in accord, with our anxiety issues. They do NOT have to dominate us. They do NOT have to cause huge lifeflow interruptions. Yes, they are there and we have to be cognizant of what we need to do (and not do) in order to best help ourselves. Small 'price to pay' in the longrun:)
I'm going to seek counseling asap. I've meditated in the past, basically just picturing myself healthy both physically and mentally, and it helps when I do it daily. It makes me feel like I have some control in my health and that I'm not just a ticking time bomb ready to explode... I've started reading books on mind body medicine and it really helps too because again, it makes me feel less helpless and more in control.
You JUST posted the above:) The actions you mention above are wonderful. Expand upon these. Knowledge is crucial, as well. A FULL understanding of anxiety and how it grabs us isn't all that important, in the longterm, IMHO, though. Your healing path from it is more vital:) There are many techniques and exercises we can try that offer up a nice possibility of helping us "rewire" our minds back to more trust and strength and security and certainty and LESS fear and doubt. I can tell that you will have a great chance at learning how to best help yourself. I've been in "this game" for many, many years and I can read between the lines of what a lot of peeps talk about (I'm not special, I've just been around anxiety - my own and others - for a long time:). I will tell you what I say here often. To me, it is one of the most important tenets to attempt to fully embrace. And it is: After we have a "you're OK - healthwise" from the Doc, then it is time to move away from further medical intervention and seek appropriate help for the underlying root cause of your struggles. There will be little (to NO) lasting peace from trying to treat a MENTAL HEALTH CHALLENGE through medical intervention. A yearly checkup is vital for HA peeps, though. And, then move away from medical intervention. HA peeps feel this is a "risk". But, in reality, the only true risk is if we do not move away from seeking out continued reassurances that we are gonna be OK in life (HA can bleed over into many facets of our lives, also....it is not ALL about health stuff). We, then, risk living without being the MAJOR definer of our overall well-being. And, to me, that is what life is all about....ME (YOU) calling a great majority the shots....and NOT anxiety:)
Think mental health - your physical health is just fine:)
Peace and Feel Well:)