first of all i would like to thank every one who posted in this thread, specially classicnerd and imobessed
i really think i should face facts now and admit im hep C positive.
the reason for my sudden anxiety issue was because sadly with out me having a clue i had an outbreak of hpv (im sorry to be so rank) i totally knocked me off my feet. i remember i kept it to myself for two weeks and googled all night and day and read some scary stuff, one thing i read is that with hpv is that it can pass over stuff on aswell so you get multiple things at once.
i remember back in 2007 during the chronic heavy cocaine use and unprotected sex, i didnt care at the time but the next day reality hits. anyway three months after my high risk exposure i was tested for every thing, all blood work hiv hep b c etc all clear. was tested again a few months after that all clear. i then was vaccinated against hep b
shortly after this i was also drinking heavily and sometimes in the morning when i would wake up i would have this crampy feeling mainly in my righ side and it would be difficult to breath, after a few minutes when i get out of bed it eventully goes. i shrugged it off but did get worried and went to doctors, he said its nothing. i still get it to this day, not every morning, its difficult to pin point when it happens it random.
anyway then (im sorry for this) light stools, not white or green just light brown orangy colour. again i didnt think anything of this.
2009. i remember when i went to turkey for a holiday i got a lovley tan, when the tan started to faid i was so itchy all over but only when i got out the shower or bath, i tried just wahing with water but didnt help. tan fades it seems ok.
2010, start feeling very tired all the time, find it dificult staying awake and end up sleeping or napping during the day.
2011 persisant tirdness, my anxiety was low at this point and wasnt concerned but all i remember saying to everyone was i feel so tired!
End of 2011 i get my first spider navi on nose, thought it was harmless, started to get black bags under eyes.
Suddenly i have multiple spider navi under my eyes and forhead arms chest everywere.
to this present day i now have constant discomfort in my liver area.
Since june my life has never been the same and it never will be now. i was tested only for hiv sphylis after the warts and thought it was so stressfull it was finaly over and i can move on.
i kept thinking in my head about hep cos i wasnt tested for it. up till now. for 6 months worried about it sick, i finaly got tested i couldn't bare the agony of waiting any longer.
negative hep C antibodys.
now twice i had that test but sadly from what i have read last night its S&it, its inepensive and done on mass scale so people like me go undiagnosed.
i thought many times back in june ending all this agony but i know that i have a family that loves me
im just sorry that i let everyone down.