I feel the same way most of the of time. I've been in a major slump for 6 months straight and I honestly don't really know what to do with myself. About the only time I feel like a normal human is when I am sleeping and I don't get much of that. I go through spells(usually just a few days) where I feel really positive and get a slight boost & reminder of the person I know I am before I go back into overdrive analyzing every tiny thing and rerunning pointless nonsense through my brain constantly. I cherish the days I feel good. I know I need to try harder to not let the anxiety control me. Some days I am just so worn out with it I feel like giving up, but I never do. I know it can be really hard at times to think positively and not dwell on negative thoughts, it takes a lot of effort. I have to distract myself with other things or focus on helping someone else, which helps me not think about my own problems. Just reading your post has helped me feel better knowing I am not the only one who feels that way! None of my friends can really relate to what I go through. This site has helped me a lot. It can get better if you want it to and try, it takes lots of patience and effort, don't give up! I hope you feel better soon & can get back to being yourself
@josho18 - Sorry you're going through a rough time
At least you made it to work. I totally didn't show up last night, nor did I call in sick :/ I have never been that irresponsible in my life regarding my job & feel like an idiot. It was kind of a wake up call for me its gotten out of control. I feel completely fried with my obsessive thinking. I've been crying off and on for months now and I was up till about 6 am this morning before I passed out. Don't let it diminish your hope though. Just take it as a small bump in the road & remember you're not alone! I'm glad you were able to go the 2.5 months symptom free, that's great! I hope it eases up for you & you can get some rest.