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[miika]

Just thinking aloud here. Got nothing better to do...

Health anxiety....it sucks. What am I afraid of? I`m afraid of my physical symptoms. Why do I have these symptoms, because I`m afraid. But I`m afraid I`ve been diagnosed wrong, and I have some horrible disease. BUT, I have a disease called Anxiety, why I cannot believe it!? I have anxiety, and it`s causing these symptoms. Why I try to eliminate all those symptoms, while the main cause is FEAR. I should eliminate fear, not symptoms. It`s not working that way. I`m waiting the day when I all of the sudden feel good (no symptoms)...I`m waiting the miracle. This is not working either. Symptoms will come and go as long as I`m afraid.

I have to trust it`s just anxiety, and I`m afraid. I must understand anxiety is doing these weird tricks, not MS or cancer. I mean I REALLY have to understand it. allthough symptoms are weird and scary, there should be some strong trust behind it, so I can live without fear. If I could drop the fear....I would be just fine.

[chrissie]

True... the only thing we have to fear, is fear itself....

But I know how you feel....I thought I was going to pass out today... have this habit of becoming so fearful I stop breathing, until I feel light headed.. then spend the next 2 hours wondering whether or not I will pass out.. then felt sick again, worried about throwing up...wasnt; sick... felt hot thought  I had fever... although not hot anymore desperate to google it
wont though
be wellX

[miika]

Has anyone noticed this? everytime someone here tells about their worries and symptoms, it`s so easy to understand and kind of "see through" that it`s just anxiety. I mean, that`s the way we should learn to look ourselves too....

[hkov]

chrissie - are you afraid to throw up too?  OH MY GOSH - Im terrified of it.  If I even get really nauseated - i got more nauseated because Im so scared to throw up.  I cant believe you are too.  This is really a freaked out way to live.  You know when you mention this to someone who isn't "normal"  they laugh and cant understand it.  I think people like us are too intelligent for the normal being. heather

[chrissie]

Hi Heather,

Yes  fear of throwing up is a major thing of mine.  I kind of know that it is panic/stress...but i can never be sure.. it comes on at the same time ( if it is going to come on) either first thing in the morning or last thing at night... everytime it happens i keep thinking ' i wont be sick, I wont' be sick' but then the 'what if this time it is a food bug... or the gateway to a serious illness?  what if I will throw up.. will it be once or will I be sick loads of times?'  true to say this makes it worse, i normally then go into the garden and get some fresh air and have a little walk round... then it goes unti the next time( when I repeat the whole what -if process)

ps - just as a tip, it seems to help if you drink some water - even when you are literatally about to wretch. this seem to make it pass for me, don't know why but seems to work.

but yeh.. nausea should have been my middle name.

Be well and nice to talk to you again

Chrissie
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