Wanna say thank you to Cheesus and everyone else that posted here. I have desynchronized thoughts too, and i got diagnosed Pure O. They seem like voices to me, because they seem to come from nowhere. I am thinking about something else, and then an insult pops on my mind. Like your discusting, horrible, etc. Non insultive thoughts come up to my mind too, like for example, "you are gonna suffer so much" or "your mom is dying". And yes, then i start to worry alot on the why that has happend. Its a very very lonelly condition. I try to live my life normally, i gave up on taking antidepressives because i was having problems with my memory already and the lack of libido. I just try to go on, i dont see a doctor anymore either. I have had this for 8 years. My first diagnose was scrupolosity , cos, i thought, i was hearing that i was going to hell ( this cos i wasnt baptized until i was 23, after those thoughts happend and was talking with a muslim person at the time that wanted to convert me).
Its so f.... exausting. I also get a huge urge of insulting God or people that im afraid of loosing, and sometimes i do mentally. Is a neverending f....cycle sometimes. I need , i really do need to talk to someone that has the same problem. I sometimes think im schizo cos when i talk about this with other pure O suffers and ask if they " hear voices " they say no....Im aware that is my thoughts. I am not aware that this insultive thoughts are mine, most of the time. I understand they can come from my subconscience, but when it happends i wonder if it can be something else, besides me. English is my second language.