I've been spamming up the HA boards with all my fears about rabies, so I thought I would bring it here, since I'm pretty sure it has become a phobia.
I am TERRIFIED of contracting rabies. It all started when one of my dogs drooled on my foot and I was worried I had a tiny open wound there that could let rabies in. I knew they were vaccinated, but the fear stayed all the same. Then I started becoming paranoid about bat bites, especially in my sleep, where you can't feel them. I scan my body every morning for weird marks, and a few days ago I FOUND SOME. Two red dots, exactly 1cm apart, on my right shoulder. I hoped it was just heat rash and they'd fade, but they didn't. I was this close to going out and getting a rabies vaccine just to allay my fear, but my parents and therapist talked me out of it, telling me that my fear was irrational since I had never seen, heard, or felt a bat in my house at any time, much less in my room. All the CDC case reports I'd found said that rabies victims had at least seen a bat in their room after being bitten. So, the fear subsided a tiiiiny bit.
Then this afternoon, I noticed some weird brown lumpy things outside my window. I looked outside and found trails of tiny black-brown pellets all down the siding of my house. I am CONVINCED these are bat droppings, and what's more, they're right outside my bedroom window.
I feel like I'm never going to be able to sleep again...how do I get rid of this phobia? I can't just seal off all my windows and doors or leave poison out for the bats to eat or something. I need to convince myself that a bat is not going to bite me in my sleep and give me rabies. The only question, of course, is how?