Sleep Poll...

[retrogurl88]

Just curious to see if there is a connection between sleep disturbances in childhood and anxiety disorders/depression.  I know I never used to sleep before I was on Paxil.  From the time I was little, I had bad insomnia and frequent episodes of sleepwalking and night terrors.  Anybody else have similar experiences as a child, or do you still experience unhealthy sleep patterns?

[MR.SNIFFLES]

As a child i slept walk 4 or 5 times that i know of, first time i was 4 and i woke up outside at 2 or 3 in the morning . I was all ways having night mares as a child.
Insomnia i have had my hole life, my sleeping schedule is always changing. Today i woke up at 8pm, in a few days I ll probably be getting up around 4am. I tend to be all over the place and commonly go 24 hours or more without sleep.

-JOSH

[ocdengineer]

I definitely had vivid nightmares as a child and still do on the rare occasion.  When I do though it affects me for days they are so graphic and horrifying.  I am glad the number is more like once to twice a year now as opposed to 2-3 times per week like when I was a child.

Take care,
OE

[retrogurl88]

Do you guys think lack of sleep has a direct impact on a child's developing brain?

[MR.SNIFFLES]

OK I AM TICKED   sorry, its just i had a kick butt answer all written out and hit post AND, I was logged out!!!! logged in and its gone ALL GONE! .well lets try this again.
I do believe lack of sleep can have a direct impact on a child's brain. The reason I believe this is that when i was working I would be in bed every night by 9-10 pm but could not get to sleep till 2-3 am  every night avg. some times it took till 4-5 am then wake at 7:20am work till 4:30pm and doit all over again the next day. it would take 4 months of that till my mind would get so drained that I would come home shower  eat and be in bed by 7-30. It sucks because when i get a normal night sleep i am more tired than when i dont, my body is not use to it,and after a good sleep it goes straight back to getting to sleep at 2am again. when iam not working my schedule is sleep 12 hours and I am awake 12 hours. when I was on zyprexa<--- I would sleep15- 16 hours. When i am getting very little sleep i am dazed and easily confused,some times out of know where every thing feels so surreal,like i am dreaming. it's very hard to focus on any thing. I also am very irritable and get hot flashes. If i remember right we dont go in  to deep sleep till the 6 or 7th hour of sleep which is the most important. The way i see it is sleep is where the muscles heal and grow ,the body recovers from the stresses put on it day in and day out. the hamster can easily fall off the wheel with some people and start to hallucinate if they go long periods of time with little sleep. if it puts so much stress on a 26 yr old lad as my self you can imagine the effect it could have on a child. as far as how they will be effected and how long term i am not sure. I guess it could also cause some sort of chimical imbalance . But if you are unable so sleep and cant focus then school will be very frustrating, which in turn could lead them to feel dumb and lower there confidence ,and self esteem. it could go down hill very quickly if untreated. this is just my assumptions, and gestaments. I could be wrong , not likely but could be hehe jk.  what do you think retrogurl ?

sorry for the late response retrogurl 


I hope my rambling has added some thing of use , take care

-josh 

[retrogurl88]

OK I AM TICKED sorry, its just i had a kick butt answer all written out and hit post AND, I was logged out!!!! logged in and its gone ALL GONE! 

  Sorry, I know how irritating that can be because, that happened to me before.... 

Anywho... Don't worry MR. SNIFFLES your rambling makes sense.  If adults can't think straight from a lack of sleep, it obviously must have the same effect on children.  Like you said, deep sleep is when our body heals its muscles and regrows certain cells.  I completely agree with you. 

If we are lacking sleep in the crucial developmental period, then that must result in extreme deficits in the brain.  Without proper sleep our brains are unable to maintain eqilibrium, so in time that must cause chemical imbalance. 

Geez, you have definitely been through hell in the sleep department!  How are things for you now?  I hope they are getting better. 

I also think that the malformation of the frontal lobe plays a key role in whether we develop a mental illness, because it is supposed to be the emotional regulation center of our brain.  (If I'm not mistaken.)

You are right, lack of sleep makes it extremely hard to focus in school.  That's why middle school is such a blur to me! 

Believe or not though, my grades were maintained during this time.  But my mood was greatly affected, so this was the beginning of my self-esteem issues, because I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.  Not to mention the daily panic attacks, I was suffering through by that time. 

But thank goodness, after being in treatment since 8th grade I am making progress!

See I can ramble too... 

I hope all of that made sense! 

[Crankcase]

I used to be really scared of the dark as a child! 

[MR.SNIFFLES]

were a couple of geniuses , you're a much better spoken one than myself.  we should write a book and go on Dr.Phil
you seem to know a lot on this. I ve always been scared to learn about stuff to do with the brain. or any thing else really.
when i was younger the doctor wanted to do a MRI on me ,but i was so scared they would find a tumor , or my brain would function would match that of a killer or some thing. wired eh?

Happy to hear your treatment is going so well and pray it continues to
 
I dropped out of school freshmen year of high school. I just couldn't take it any more, I had no friends and got d's and f's on every thing.
I have always had learning problems. It gets me really down , because i want to learn to fly or sail or do some thing I enjoy for a living,but it all requires going to school . I feel dumb alot of times because it takes me so long to learn things. its embarrassing to always be the last to finish things , then every one has to wait for you to finish....eek!

As far as the sleeping goes, right now I am not working so I sleep A LOT . I know when i start working again I will be getting very little sleep. 
I am still all over though.

As a child i slept walk 4 or 5 times that i know of, first time i was 4 and i woke up outside at 2 or 3 in the morning . I was all ways having night mares as a child.
Insomnia i have had my hole life, my sleeping schedule is always changing. Today i woke up at 8pm, in a few days I ll probably be getting up around 4am. I tend to be all over the place and commonly go 24 hours or more without sleep.

-JOSH

5 day later and I woke up at 5:30am to day just like I said i would
I ll be back to waking up a 2pm or later in no time.
I really wish i could just be normal when it comes to sleep (MR.Sniffles drags his butt around for a couple of minuets) 

 Good day miss

-Josh

[retrogurl88]

Crankcase - I'm still scared of the dark!    

MR. SNIFFLES- Thanks!  I don't know about Dr. Phil,  but I have actually considered writing a book filled with various experiences people have had with anxiety disorders.  (You know like a Chicken Soup thing.?)  But I'm not sure, if I would be motivated enough to write that long!   

By the way, I'm willing to bet your brain looks perfectly fine under an MRI. 

Happy to hear your treatment is going so well and pray it continues to.

  Thanks!  I hope so too.  Unfortunately, I still have a long way to come. 

I dropped out of school freshmen year of high school. I just couldn't take it any more, I had no friends and got d's and f's on every thing.
I have always had learning problems. It gets me really down , because i want to learn to fly or sail or do some thing I enjoy for a living,but it all requires going to school  . I feel dumb alot of times because it takes me so long to learn things. its embarrassing to always be the last to finish things , then every one has to wait for you to finish....eek!

That's terrible!  You sound like a really smart person too.  Unfortunately, the teachers probably didn't recognize that you just learn differently.  I'm an education major, and I still don't think enough is being done about students with learning disabilities.  It's a horrible reality.  That's why I am seriously thinking about becoming a special education teacher, so I can help these student's succeed.

Have you ever thought about going back to school to get your G.E.D?  Because knowing what you know now, I bet somewhere like a second start would be willing to work with you.  Plus it would be a huge confidence booster.

Remember, you're not dumb!  None of us are. 

I'm glad your sleep is better right now.  Are you seeing a therapist?  Because it sounds like the reason you can't sleep as well, while working, is that you tend to take your stress home with you. 

I hope things get better for you soon! 

Thanks for the kind words!

[tam8226]

OK, so RETROGURL and MR> SNIFFLES....what do you do to sleep? When I was a kid, I used to sleepwalk on occasion. As a teenager and in my early 20's I had nightmares and would sleepwalk. Now, I just plain old don't sleep. I take an anti-anxiety three times a day, but I never get relaxed enough to sleep.

[retrogurl88]

To be honest with you tam8226, I only sleep now because of pure luck.  For some reason, ever since I started taking Paxil my sleep has dramatically improved.  Why? I have no clue.

Have you tried listening to relaxing music in order to sleep? drinking warm milk? putting on a fan?

I'm sorry, I feel terrible that I don't have better tips to offer you. 

What are you taking for your anxiety?  That may be keeping you awake.  Most meds have insomnia as a common side effect.

[MR.SNIFFLES]

Hey retrogurl88 ,

I think a book would be cool, I would get a copy , of course you would have to sign it for me  .

Unfortunately, I still have a long way to come

we all do , at least we got a place like this to make the journey not so lonely.
its tough but you ll do just fine

That's terrible!  You sound like a really smart person too.  Unfortunately, the teachers probably didn't recognize that you just learn differently.  I'm an education major, and I still don't think enough is being done about students with learning disabilities.  It's a horrible reality.  That's why I am seriously thinking about becoming a special education teacher, so I can help these student's succeed.

Have you ever thought about going back to school to get your G.E.D?  Because knowing what you know now, I bet somewhere like a second start would be willing to work with you.  Plus it would be a huge confidence booster.

Remember, you're not dumb!  None of us are. 

Ya , when i was in 2 or third grade one of my teachers told me all i would a mount to is working  fast food! That still makes me mad ,and confused at the same time, why would any one say that to a kid?!?
I was in special classes for math , and reading, If i remember right.

I ve been thinking about getting my G.E.D a lot lately.
I am at the point that I know i Will never get any where with out it. you cant make much with out some kind of schooling,which means always living in crappy apartments in a Drugi neighborhood, and always living pay check to pay check.
right now I live at my mom's house, because I know if i were to move out  with a low paying job that would be it. the possibility of achieving goals , like owning a house and being able to retire at a not to old of a age goes out the window. I get so stressed thinking about it, because i fear failure. I fear the unknown, I don't know what to expect in doing it. yet I fear amounting to nothing, knowing every day doing nothing  adds up to weeks , and weeks , to months, and months add up to years, years add up to missed opportunities , and regret. Its a battle of fears really.

thank you for the kind word's as well. it would be really awesome if you did become a special education teacher. What ever you choose to do you will do great, and i am sure you ll be a real blessing for many kids  who are going through these same things and don't really under stand what's going on with them.
It's always nice to have help from some one who's been there and not just some one who read a book and thinks they under stand.

Are you seeing a therapist?  Because it sounds like the reason you can't sleep as well, while working, is that you tend to take your stress home with you. 

I hope things get better for you soon! 

No, I have not seen a therapist in many years, I no longer have insurance so it's not some thing I will be able to do any time soon.
stress can keep me up for many hours if things are going rough at work, but even when things a going pretty smooth i still cant sleep.
I would be in be in bed by 9-10pm every night when working, but it takes 4 hours or so for my mind to calm down. thing is I really never  thought about work  much at home.
I am a compulsive thinker, i am always day dreaming about some thing , or studying  something, I am a very compulsive person,if there is some thing I cant picture in my head or some thing i cant remember  i have to find a picture or answer to my question  , which can mean digging through a hundred magazines at 1 in the morning . even though I am physically tired mentally i am always wired. Which is why i am sleeping better right now, since i don't have to be up at any certain time, I can just sleep for as long i want. when ever i want.

OK, so RETROGURL and MR> SNIFFLES....what do you do to sleep? When I was a kid, I used to sleepwalk on occasion. As a teenager and in my early 20's I had nightmares and would sleepwalk. Now, I just plain old don't sleep. I take an anti-anxiety three times a day, but I never get relaxed enough to sleep.

I probably answered you question already above. as you can see I still have a hard time sleeping when i have to be on a certain schedule, i am just sleeping better now since I can sleep all day if that's what it takes to get rested.
once i start working again i ll be back to going on 5 hours or so of sleep. 
one thing people have told me is start calming down two hours before bed,read, warm bath with in-scents what ever relaxes you. 
personally I dont have the Patience to do it . I wish i could be of more help i know how hard it is.

 



-josh

[retrogurl88]

I think a book would be cool, I would get a copy , of course you would have to sign it for me.

Thanks MR. SNIFFLES!    Maybe I will one day...  But it would have to be when I escape this avalanche of homework!  And I could have book signings, so anyone who wants to get a signed copy  could get one.

we all do, at least we got a place like this to make the journey not so lonely.
its tough but you' ll do just fine

And that's what makes this site so great, because I know that there are other people like me, on the same journey!  Thanks I know I'll do fine, I just need some reassurance sometimes!  You, and everyone else on this site will do fine too!  Because coming here and posting demonstrates that we have begun to face our weakness in life.

Ya , when i was in 2 or third grade one of my teachers told me all i would a mount to is working  fast food! That still makes me mad ,and confused at the same time, why would any one say that to a kid?!?

And this person should have never been a teacher!  What a jerk?  Why would you say that to a kid?  Don't they realize the power of words?  Apparently not. 

I ve been thinking about getting my G.E.D a lot lately.

That's great!  You should definitely go for it.  The best part about Second Start, is that they usually work around your schedule.

i fear failure. I fear the unknown

Believe me, this is a fear many people share, including myself.  But, I think going for your G.E.D. will boost your confidence, and help quell some of your fears of the unknown.  Remember, one step at a time!

thank you for the kind word's as well. it would be really awesome if you did become a special education teacher. What ever you choose to do you will do great, and i am sure you ll be a real blessing for many kids  who are going through these same things and don't really under stand what's going on with them.
It's always nice to have help from some one who's been there and not just some one who read a book and thinks they under stand.

Thank you!    Yes it is, books give us information, but life experiences are the best lessons.

No, I have not seen a therapist in many years, I no longer have insurance so it's not some thing I will be able to do any time soon.

That's too bad.  Is there a good friend you can confide in?  Sometimes, just having someone to listen helps. 

I am a compulsive thinker, i am always day dreaming about some thing , or studying  something

That is not always a bad thing, when it's channeled into something positive.  What sort of hobbies do you have?  I find writing in a journal every night helpful, when it comes to reducing the clutter in my mind.

Once again, thanks for your response!  (Sorry for all the quotes, I find it easier to respond to a post this way!  )

Good luck with everything! 

[MR.SNIFFLES]

Believe me, this is a fear many people share, including myself.  But, I think going for your G.E.D. will boost your confidence, and help quell some of your fears of the unknown.  Remember, one step at a time!

Thank you, ya it be a big pick me up to get a G.E.D, I was sort thinking I would do that or become a trucker I just don't  want to work 16 hours a day, so i guess  G.E.D is the better choice.

That's too bad.  Is there a good friend you can confide in?  Sometimes, just having someone to listen helps. 

No, I dont have any friend really, I am a big loner. the last time i had some one i really thought of as a friend was 8 years ago. he joined the army though.
my cousin who is more like my brother is some one i very much trust, but he's married, and really busy with work and school, he's learning to fly helicopters , and works 12 hours a day 3 days a week.
so he's usually stressed about up coming test . I dont want to make his world a little harder just to make mine a little easier.

that is not always a bad thing, when it's channeled into something positive.  What sort of hobbies do you have?  I find writing in a journal every night helpful, when it comes to reducing the clutter in my mind.

Hobbies, play video games, listen to music, thinking about having cool hobbies
A lot of the things I'd like to do invole being out side which  anxiety would make things really not so fun.  I'd probably be in to motorcycles, or lifted trucks if not for anxiety. I'd also luv to start running, fishing ,hunting......

Once again, thanks for your response!  (Sorry for all the quotes, I find it easier to respond to a post this way!  )

I find it easier as well, and your welcome


-Josh

[retrogurl88]

MR. SNIFFLES,

I was sort thinking I would do that or become a trucker  I just don't  want to work 16 hours a day, so i guess  G.E.D is the better choice.

Yeah, getting your G.E.D. is definitely the better choice.  Truckers work long hours, and get little sleep.  This is something that's not good for anxious people like us, because less sleep equals more anxiety.

No, I dont have any friend really, I am a big loner. the last time i had some one i really thought of as a friend was 8 years ago. he joined the army though.
my cousin who is more like my brother is some one i very much trust, but he's married, and really busy with work and school, he's learning to fly helicopters , and works 12 hours a day 3 days a week.
so he's usually stressed about up coming test . I dont want to make his world a little harder just to make mine a little easier.

That's too bad.  You should try joining a gym, community club, or some sort of volunteer organization.  Not only are these things positve, they are also a great way to meet people in a neutral location! 

Hobbies, play video games, listen to music, thinking about having cool hobbies
A lot of the things I'd like to do invole being out side which  anxiety would make things really not so fun.  I'd probably be in to motorcycles, or lifted trucks if not for anxiety. I'd also luv to start running, fishing ,hunting......   

Now, don't put yourself down,  there is nothing wrong with those hobbies.  You just need to find additional hobbies that involve socializing with others.  Running would be a great thing to focus on!  It helps reduce stress through the release of endorphins.  Do you live near a track?  Start running there.  You just might end up meeting some fellow runners/walkers! 

Peaceout,

~RG88

P.S. This has really turned into a great thread!

[MR.SNIFFLES]

Now, don't put yourself down,   there is nothing wrong with those hobbies.  You just need to find additional hobbies that involve socializing with others.  Running would be a great thing to focus on!  It helps reduce stress through the release of endorphins.  Do you live near a track?  Start running there.  You just might end up meeting some fellow runners/walkers!   

Ya, we have three or four tracks around here, But due to the things people do now day's there all locked(there all at schools), when I was younger they didn't have fences around almost the entire school. what's this world coming too
where there's a will there's a way though right .
I have been wanting to join the gym for a long time, of course there always a fear to keep me from going for it. I want to be bigger before going..... ya know so i can lift more and not look to silly starting out. I guess its kinda one of those guy things.

Sorry , like i said i am just as guilty of be to tough on myself   

P.S. This has really turned into a great thread!

  couldn't have said it better my self.


God speed and good night...
 

-Josh

[Crankcase]

Sniffles - don't worry about looking silly at a gym. There will always be someone that sucks more than you. lol. If you're that worried about it start working out at home  2-3 times a week. You can do push ups, body weight squats, and find something to do pull ups on. Throw in some running too. You can really build yourself up with body weight exercises. Once push ups get easy, find something to put your feet on and do inclined push ups; when body weight squats get easy, get something heavy to hold and squat it too; pull ups will never be easy hahaha. 

[MR.SNIFFLES]

don't worry about looking silly at a gym. There will always be someone that sucks more than you.

    he he , sucker's

I only have 10 or 11% body fat. I am a pretty lite eater, with a very high metabolism. to fast ! I do nothing but lay around and i still lose weight ,
Anybody want that problem???    I use to  weigh 150 on average, But after My butt head wife walked out on me because of my anxiety problems , I dropped down to 122 or so. I am at one thirty or so right now.
my fear is my tiny wrist, ugly little boogers they are push ups are pretty easy for me since i am so lite,  putting my feet up is still pretty easy. I have been trying to do hand stand push ups, i can only do one right now. I did a search a while back on getting fit without weights, and found a site with a lot of good stuff, you named a few of em... now , any body know where i can buy some motivation, I got plenty  of procrastination.

So, how long till I am as big as Jay Cutler?!?

- Josh

[retrogurl88]

MR. SNIFFLES,

Ya, we have three or four tracks around here, But due to the things people do now day's there all locked(there all at schools),

MR. SNIFFLES that's too bad.  Is there any way for members of the community to get special permission to use them?

I have been wanting to join the gym for a long time, of course there always a fear to keep me from going for it. I want to be bigger before going..... ya know so i can lift more and not look to silly starting out. I guess its kinda one of those guy things.

I wouldn't worry about that, I'll bet there are also other people just starting out at the gym.  If you feel really uncomfortable about it, start lifting on your own for two weeks or so to build up your strength, and then go.

Sorry, like i said i am just as guilty of be to tough on myself

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you upset, I just don't like seeing people put themselves down.  (Remember, you reminded me to be positive when I called myself an idiot.  So I was just returning the favor  )

I use to  weigh 150 on average, But after My butt head wife walked out on me because of my anxiety problems , I dropped down to 122 or so. I am at one thirty or so right now.

I'm sorry about that MR. SNIFFLES.  I'm sure you'll find someone else one day, who will accept you for who you are!

As always peaceout, 

~RG88

[MR.SNIFFLES]

MR. SNIFFLES that's too bad.  Is there any way for members of the community to get special permission to use them?

not that I have heard of.
there's one place I might be able to go, it s at a community collage ,but last time when i went over there to walk there was a pee wee foot ball game so it depends if they got a lot of games , or other activities going on . at night security would probably tell me to leave.

I wouldn't worry about that, I'll bet there are also other people just starting out at the gym.  If you feel really uncomfortable about it, start lifting on your own for two weeks or so to build up your strength, and then go.

Ya ,I need to start doing some thing ,i get so depressed siting around. when i was 16 i use to ride bikes with my friend who joined the army. we used to ride , street , grinding ledges, and bunny hoping over garbage cans and stuff.did that till i was 20 yrs old. best years of my life. I used to ride from 8 pm till 2 am every night. I got me through a lot of hard times. It gave me a real feeling of accomplishment, having anxiety and doing 360's off 4 foot deck's dont really go hand in hand , but it felt great to over come so many fears that i did.but then i broke my fork and had no money for new one,when i could ride i found i had a cyst in my hand (i hit my hand on a beam while doing heel flips to 50-50's on the couch in the living room) and  could not hold on when trying to do tricks, the cyst is right under a tendon . I worked out with weights to see if i could toughen if up so i could ride again, it worked I could ride with no pain , i still have a little lump in my hand,but now it was the cops that stopped me from riding. they would stop me constantly threatening me with 175 dollar tickets. I felt like my world was stolen and now i am forced to live in some one else's
drugs and crime around here have gone up and any one on a bike seems suspect now days to the cops. Its been six years since riding, and i still have dreams while sleeping of riding. the one thing i was always good at from the time i could walk was athletic stuff. so its very heart breaking to feel the physical effects of anxiety and see it slipping a way. I still search for some thing to fill that void that was left when i called it quites.
It was such a big part of who i was. I feel so physically  broken now day's.

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you upset, I just don't like seeing people put themselves down.  (Remember, you reminded me to be positive when I called myself an idiot.  So I was just returning the favor  )

oh no , you didn't make me upset,I can see how i may have fooled you with me being quite the emotionconist
I was just saying  that I can be a little harsh  on my self as well, and need reminders too... oh ok, I can see how what i wrote came across wrong. It sounds kinda catty with the "like i said" part. my apologies, not at all my intent.

(Wow, I must sound like an idiot.)   

you don't sound like a idiot

Sorry MR. SNIFFLES, sometimes I can be really critical of myself.  It's something I need to work on.

I am very critical of my self as well.   I tend to take life to seriously.   if ya can believe that.
 

Now, don't put yourself down,   there is nothing wrong with those hobbies.

Sorry, like i said i am just as guilty of being to tough on myself

  I am sorry for any thing that came a cross wrong. 

peace out 

P.s sorry for the rambling vent, he he he, I am such a dramatic.  


-Sniffles

[MR.SNIFFLES]

I went to the track last night and walked for 2 and a half hours. 
I stayed there till 10 with no problems. It was great to get out they also had a bar for pull ups  so I monkeyed around on that like the kid i am  I did ten my first try. I have not done those since middle school.

  have you ever wrote some thing and posted it only to realize how lame it sounds afterward?
I hate part my last post,   i ve been obsessing over it since i posted it.. 10 hrs ago  we need an edit button




Peace out

-sniffles

[manda266]

I was terrified of the dark as a child, probably till age 13 or so.  I was afraid to sleep by myself and would dread bed time.  I would sometimes leave the bedroom light on all night while I slept.

[retrogurl88]

MR. SNIFFLES--

I went to the track last night and walked for 2 and a half hours. 
I stayed there till 10 with no problems. It was great to get out  they also had a bar for pull ups  so I monkeyed around on that like the kid i am   I did ten my first try. I have not done those since middle school.

Congrats!  That's awesome! 

have you ever wrote some thing and posted it only to realize how lame it sounds afterward?
I hate part my last post,   i ve been obsessing over it since i posted it.. 10 hrs ago   we need an edit button

I don't mean to embarass you, but there is a way to edit posts.  If you look on the upper-right-hand corner of each post, there's a little modify button.  Don't feel bad though, I just figured this out recently! 

manda266 --

I was terrified of the dark as a child, probably till age 13 or so.  I was afraid to sleep by myself and would dread bed time.  I would sometimes leave the bedroom light on all night while I slept.

Yup, I was the same way.  (In fact, I still am!  That's why I have a nightlight in my room...  )

[MR.SNIFFLES]

I don't mean to embarass you, but there is a way to edit posts.  If you look on the upper-right-hand corner of each post, there's a little modify button.  Don't feel bad though, I just figured this out recently! 

Mine does not have one , I always get an error on page .  I tried for hours to find away to do it. There was one time i saw the edit button but it was only on the post after the one i want to change, and it only happened once.
In the upper right all i get is quote. and on the bottom my ip address, and report to mod. It gives me the option to modify this post ,  but only this one!

I was terrified of the dark as a child, probably till age 13 or so.  I was afraid to sleep by myself and would dread bed time.  I would sometimes leave the bedroom light on all night while I slept.

I have always felt more safe in the dark, I guess its because I am secretly a ninja

[retrogurl88]

MR. SNIFFLES---

Mine does not have one  , I always get an error on page .  I tried for hours to find away to do it. There was one time i saw the edit button but it was only on the post after the one i want to change, and it only happened once.
In the upper right all i get is quote. and on the bottom my ip address, and report to mod. It gives me the option to modify this post ,  but only this one!

Hm, maybe you can only modify the post you just typed.  Which would make sense, because that's all I've ever been able to do.  Or maybe, I have no idea what I'm talking about! 

I am secretly a ninja

Heehee, Ninjas are awesome! 

Peaceout,

~RG88