So this is my story. It may seem completely bizarre and stupid sounding, I know. But just help me out.
So for as long as I can remember, I've had a little clicking in my right TMJ.
I have an anxiety disorder. Before everything I'm going to explain to you, keep in mind that I was feeling very anxious about certain things but nothing I can remember that was pertaining to what I'm about to tell you.
I had a dentist appointment in November (I hadn't been there in about 5 years, so I was scared), I went to it and they said I had great oral health but I needed my wisdom teeth taken out and needed a MINOR cavity filling on my bottom right tooth, somewhere in the back of my jaw (didn't even need a shot to numb me), so got my filling a couple days after, and everything seemed fine... 'Til I think I started to worry about having my wisdom teeth taken out (damn anxiety). Then a couple weeks later, late November, I don't know what led me to say it, but I said the word "spices" outloud (no idea why, sounds so stupid), and realized "oh my god, my bottom right tooth is touching behind my top right tooth at "s" sounds". I've so SO SO stressed out about this because it for some reason didn't feel normal. So I started saying more words with "s", and realized they touched sometimes and didn't. Then my jaw tightened up so bad, like felt so tight. The muscles become tight now on and off (mostly on). I started to think "omg, what if my minor TMJD is making this happen... What if the right side of my jaw is coming out further than the left?", so I test my 's' everyday. I have to. It's almost like an OCD. So after a month or so of worrying about this and crying for the past month (at that time), I went back to my dentist and told him about this "tooth touching" thing at "s" words and how my jaw feels tense. He gave me a splint and I was still worrying. So, I took the splint and refused to wear it at night, actually, hardly even wore it because that's how anxious I am (I feared it would change something in my jaw and make it worse) I'm not sure if I was having the popping before he gave me the splint, but recently I've developed a TMJ popping on my left jaw now because of all this stress (maybe). So, awesome, I got a popping in my left now when I open wide, and a clicking in my right when I move it side-to-side. So, I went to an urgent care doctor, and told her about what's going on, and she didn't have an answer so I asked her to take a CT scan of my jaw and she did, she told me she couldn't tell me if what I'm experiencing was normal or not because she's not a dentist, then told me to give the CT scan to my dentist. So, went back to the dentist and told him "teeth are still hitting at 's' sounds and my jaw feels more tense", so he told me to go to a TMJ specialist. But first, I went to ANOTHER doctor because my insurance wouldn't cover the TMJ specialist, and she told me this sounds stress related and that teeth do touch at random times at "s" sounds... But that isn't good enough for me and my anxiety, so took this embarrassing stupidity to the next level and went to an oral surgeon that covered my insurance.
At the oral surgeon, I gave him the CT scan. He looked at my teeth and felt my jaws and told me everything looked fine on the CT scan and I have hardly any popping. However, he noticed that my front right tooth sort of comes further in than my left (in other words, my teeth aren't symmetrically lined up). He told me to say the word "sixty-sixty" and I did. Then he said "it's normal for teeth to touch at 's' sounds, and the reason why your right bottom one is hitting your top right one is because jaws aren't symmetrical". That still wasn't good enough, so went to another doctor, she told me the same thing.
I've asked people around and get mixed answers, like "yes", "no", "sometimes they touch".
But with anxiety, you know that if a million people tell you things, you just can't believe them.
This has ruined my life since November. I've gotten so depressed about this and have been experiencing physical symptoms of anxiety, like muscle spasms, tightness, pains... I just want all this to go away. I've been crying everyday since I've said the word "spices", no idea why I even said it and so wish I never did. I sound so stupid, I know lol.
The fact that my right top tooth comes a little closer to my bottom right tooth than my top left tooth does with my bottom left tooth, I understand that part. But is it normal for teeth to touch at random times at "s" sounds?
Please answer this. Anybody. I know it sounds completely dumb, but what can I say, I'm so anxious. This is putting such a toll on my body and mind. Please. Thank you.