Hello I'm new here...

[peetred]

 Hello,
    I am glad I found this message board after searching and searching. I was up late last night after some anxiety attacks and looking on here.. but finally found this board this morning.
   I was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder about 2 years ago. Mostly this is GED, but I have symptoms of some other types of Anxiety Disorder. I also suffer from chronic depression that comes and goes at times in my life. Most people label me as a "worry wart" in everyday life, but those that live with me know that it is so much more. I especially get anxious being alone, and being in the dark, or in places when it is night-time. I have an Anxious brain that never seems to turn off, and there is always something on my mind to do, to say, to accomplish, etc, and It gets to be too much for me. 
  If I have a disagreement with family I have been known to have violent outbursts. Anxiety also affects my body physicallly, and pain and my anxiety attacks go hand in hand.   Pain can trigger my attacks, and my attacks can trigger pain. Inconsistency in my life also triggers my anxiety.   
   Zoloft was working for me, but I am off it currently b/c I am pregnant. I have been off meds for a while now, but going to ask my doctor this week for something to take while pregnant, b/c it is again getting to be too much for me to handle. It is hard for me to function in daily life. 

Good to meet you all!

Vanessa

[Emily]

Hi Vanessa

I am glad you found us! We will ALWAYS be here for you too! This is a very good group of caring people who are just like you and I.. I too get the anxiety REAL badly when I am alone. My doctor calls this Agoraphobia. I also have a fear of people (whom I do not know), fear of stores, and a fear of driving since this all started a few years ago. I suffer from Panic Disorder, GAD, Depression, and the Agoraphobia. My husband ended up getting a vasectomy in October because of my conditions. We've been together 7 years now and I feel so badly for what I have done to his life. He is VERY active, and I can't leave the house much anymore.. It's torn our marriage apart. We almost split up three weeks ago. He filed for divorce. But we have since began to work things out. He's now in counseling. I consider myself lucky..

I'm sorry to start rambling about myself.. I hope you have a low anxiety day.. Keep in touch :)

Emily

[basketcase]

Vanessa,
  Glad you found us too as there are so many caring people here who totally understand what you're going through. Congrats on your baby and I hope that your doctor can suggest some type of medication that will help get you through all these things.
   May I ask if you've had a stressful life? Many upsetting things like people who have let you down etc. I do believe that has been the case with myself. I've got a ton of things starting from when I was a kid on up to married life. I guess we are the really sensitive people and find it hard to deal with problems. I especially since all of my life I've had to do things on my own without support of parents or anyone. I too get the worst anxiety when alone but no one seems to care and I can't drive anymore either. Thank the Lord that your husband has decided to stay. I know how hard it is for others to try and understand us but our disorder is real. Do keep your communication lines open with your husband and maybe some counseling for the two of you would help. He needs to truly know what a struggle you go through everyday and not criticize but be supportive. Somedays are worse than others, I know that for sure.
   Do come and share with us and let us know how you're doing. I hope that by sharing it will help you. Take care.

Valerie