I think I'm depressed

[PMC]

I'm 19 years old and live at home with my sister and parents and I'm also Agoraphobic which means i cannot live a 'normal' life. I am on medication and i just currently stopped my therapy due to my lack of motivation and interest... which is becoming a huge problem for me. I have no motivation whatsoever to do work to help my anxiety, i don't want to do anything anymore... i just want to sleep, eat and go on my laptop. I don't like spending time with other people and i want to be alone. However i do not feel suicidal or 'down'... i just don't feel anything? my parents are mad at me and think im being lazy because all i am doing is sleeping and staying in bed all day but i can't find the motivation or power to help myself... i read somewhere this is a symptom of depression and i feel as if i may be mildly depressed, but im scared to tell people in case i have to go back to therapy or if they don't believe me and think im using it as an excuse for my 'laziness' or am i just lazy? I have been suffering from anxiety from the age of 8 and it has ruled my life from then, i have had good years and bad years but at this moment in time i'm not doing too well... i haven't attended any social events in over a year and i do the same thing everyday, when i think of my memories when i was okay and i was able to do things i feel as if they arent mine? as if im in someone elses head because the past year all seems like a blur and one day to me... sorry if im ranting on but i just need some advice, i have never met another person who has suffered from anxiety or depression and i really dont know what to do

[Neal]

Hey man, I'm sorry youre not feeling to great right now.  I'm not saying I know all the answers, but I will offer the advice that I can.  First of all I'm glad to hear that youre not depressed, and I'm pretty sure if you were you would know.  Perhaps this lack of motivation is a sign that you are GETTING depressed though, so maybe you should watch out for that. 

Sounds like you have been working hard on trying to get better with therapy and medication.  Sometimes we can burn ourselves out by going too hard.  You could just be experiencing the burnout right now.  Best thing to do for this is let your mind and body do some catching up and take it easy.  But dont let that be an excuse for you to not do anything or take it easy for too long, just enough to catch some more wind in your sails. 

Lastly, you should ponder on whether or not you really are just being lazy.  I think it goes without saying that hardwork trumps everything, and that nothing worth getting will come easy.  Sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and do things that you dont want to do, but you know will help you out.  The last thing you want to do is have regret.  In a year from now you dont want to look back and think to yourself that you could be a little farther down the road to recovery if you just put in the effort. 

So I guess dont be too hard on yourself, but not too easy either.  I hope you figure it out and get better.  Take care, keep us posted
 

[asianliason]

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