New here and scared!

[kuteness82]

Hi. I am a 23 year old female and have fear of having a serious illness! When I was 16 up until I was 22. I had very bad attacks I would vomit alot, and stuff. I went to the DR they said it was Acid Reflux, the symptoms would be on and off for sometime. Then I stayed in the hospital for 1 week, and they said I had Gallstones needed to remove my GB. So...I went on about that I had stomach cancer, and not a GB  problem,  I would get paranoid and make my symptoms worse. Since I have taken my GB I've been ok. Soo. When I was 15 or 16, I was running track in school and pulled something on the back of my leg, the DR said it was an infection so he gave me pills it went away, the pain was like a burning, throbbing sensation on the lump. 4 years go by I went for a long 2 hour walk, and that thing popped out again, but it always burned and stung it never produced pain, DR said it was a Lipoma a Benign Fatty Tumor. Couldn't remove gave me pills for it. It went away. Now this past December after a very rigourous aerobic step class it came out again, I went to the DR, he did and Ultrasound sent me to the fracture clinic, and the Fracture DR said I had a very big Varicose Vein. I am going to see a Vascular Surgeon, on May 25. I think I have something seriously wrong, I have the symptoms of Varicose Veins but then I go look up other diseases and see their symptoms and think I have them also. For the 3 weeks, I've felt ok, until I started worrying I have something really bad on my leg, then I had shortness of breath, and would panic really bad, then I had burning, tingling, numb sensations, and now I got itching sensations and the burning and tingling too. Everyday I wake up and think I have something really wrong with me, and when I wake up, all I can do is think of my leg, and that I have something really bad, even though it is a Varicose Vein. And I think about it all day, I hardly sleep, really bad insomnia, and it goes on for the rest of the day, any little thing that's wrong with me, I automatically think it's bad and go research diseases on the net about it. I think of the symptom, so much, I make it really worse. Ahhh. My boyfriend says I am a Hypochondriac. I believe I am also. I've always been this way. Any input would be appreciated. Thanks.

[michelle]

Hi I am Michelle,  I am exactly the same way.  One piece of advice, it is very hard try to stay out of the medical sites.  It will take over and lead you to more panic.  About 6 years ago that is exactly what it did to me, I had my worst anxiety ever, before I was diagnosed.  This has been going on since I was about 14.  Second you need to talk about this with your doctor if you havent already!  Write back soon.  Feel better.

[kuteness82]

Hey, Michelle. Thanks for writing back. Yeah any piece of evidence for me triggers I have something bad and then I go look it up write away. Or if someone mentions a serious illness on TV, I start to think I have it. I am going to talk to the Vascular surgeon about this. Even after my GB Surgery the DR said for me to come for a checkup I was panicking, and he goes no signs of Cancer of anything of that sort, but I still went to worry. I really need help for this. And I'l l get it. Thanks Michelle!! Hope your well!

[ScaredJenna]

Reading your post felt like I wrote it. I am the exact same way.  I am in the doctors office
at least 4 times a month.  I have also noticed a lump on my leg.  The doctor quickly also said it was a Limpoma.
By the look on my face, he noticed I was not satisfied. I asked him how did he know it wasn't cancer without
testing?  He confidently told me he didnt think thats what it was. He said for "peace of my mind", he will
order an Ultrasound, which I am scheduled for this week.  I cant sleep at night thinking the cancer may
be spreading. I know..i know..what cancer? 

I always think I have some type of cancer in my body. So far, I've had brain, lung, ovarian, and breast cancer
(in my head). The first disease I thought I has was MS. That was the worst. There were days, I couldn't walk,
and I was dizzy. I had the numbing, tingling..all of it!

I know where you're coming from and wish you  best of luck.

[kuteness82]

Yeah when he told me that, I got scared, and thought OMG, how do you know it's not cancerous, and it's not spreading. I did get an Ultrasound and was sent to another DR, and he said it wasn't a Lipoma, it is a very big Varicose Vein, and duh, by looking at it you can tell it's a Vein problem. I don't have one lump, I have 2 or 4 and it's not tender like a Lipoma, and those lumps are Varicose Vein bulges, so phew that makes me happy. But thank you! I wish you the best of luck, also!!!!