struggle after struggle

[jacob13089]

Hi everyone,

My name is Jacob and I've been absent from this website for a long time. I somehow controlled my anxiety for a few years and was able to deal with it quite easily. At first it was terrible, I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. I wouldn't go to work and I would wake up with my heart pounding of my chest, beating so intense that was seriously scared for my life number of times. Somehow I managed to fight it, to beat it (or so i thought). I recently became sick, with the flu/sore throat. I was bed ridden for eight straight days, and had to go back to the doctors twice. they prescribed me an antibiotic, and I felt better. The days I felt better I was still laying around but I realized something, my heart was racing just sitting there (around 100bpm) and when i would walk around/take a shower it would race very fast. Now it's been three days of just torture, not being able to get my pulse down, and I've tried everything. I go back to the doctor and they said it's just anxiety, but they can't relate. Since missing a full week of work, I'm left with nothing, no paycheck for the week, and this hits me right in the face. I don't understand why it's back, and why it won't slow down even only for a second. I'm nervous that this might put me over the edge and make me lose my job this time. I'm not sure if it was the antibiotics that could have made my heart rate increase, but I stopped taking them two days ago and it's still up. I'm worried and I'm seeking advice from someone with a past experience such as mine, or anyone that will listen. Thank you

Jacob

[San Andreas]

Jacob - sorry you are dealing with this.  I ask you to read your own post - particularly the line

Since missing a full week of work, I'm left with nothing, no paycheck for the week, and this hits me right in the face.  I don't understand why it's back, and why it won't slow down even only for a second. I'm nervous that this might put me over the edge and make me lose my job this time.

  This would stress me out (like watching the stock market it right now and wondering how much more of my retirement money I am losing  )

Plus - having a flu or bad cold (or any illness) is hard on your body.  You are probably still a little weak from that too.  I agree with the doctor - it does sound like anxiety to me for sure. 

[jacob13089]

thank you for the response. i hope i get more relaxed after a few more days. i was terribly sick for 5 days  and just resting up for the past 3...so i hopefully a few days longer ill be eating regularly and my heart should slow down.... i HOPE