Can Anyone Help?

[iamloco724]

ok ive had panic disorder/anixety and have been depressed since i was in 4th grade..while in school this caused me to not go..many fights with parents..i made it to highschool which i shouldnt have but they just suffled me along..out of all those years i never got left back then in hs it all caught up to me i was left back year after year eventully then threated to put my mom up on deglect charges which was crazy cause they were suppose to do so much 0103 in that school to help me but they didnt and my mom is far from neglectful..so i was forced to drop out..for 3 years now i havnt done much i have anxiety and panics over getting my ged same thing goes for getting a job..so i pretty much do nothing all day the only time im active is when im with my g/f we go out and stuff but nothign really social...but now im at a crossroads..cause i was just offered a job by a friend and i did it for one day and all went fine but then that night i started panicing got nausheus lightheaded..and all those feelings that i had in school came back...so i quit the job..but im so torn cause i really want the job and its good money but i just cant go through this feeling all the time..now ever since this happened ive been having these feelings everyday so quiting didnt get me anywhere..now i have it everyday cause i dont know what to do cause i want the job but i cant deal with my feelings..and also now im more depressed then ive been cause im relizing im like trapped like i need a job but how can i work when i feel like this...ive been on every anti depressent and anxiety medication over the years some work for a little then i become use to it and they stop..right now im on nothing and not seeing any help...so i would apreciate it if anyone had any advice of how i can go about helping my self and help my self take this job and go to work..also anyone have any suggestions with herbal meds ive seen alot of stuff over the past few days but dont know if these things really work so any advice would be greatly apreciated thank you

[basketcase]

Hello,
  I am so sorry that you've had so many problems for most of your life. I will say that I am learning a lot since having my anxiety and one thing is, you have to be good to yourself. Do know that anxiety won't kill you, it's just your body rebelling. I just finished reading a book that says when the feelings of panic start, just tell yourself ok, I can take it and face it. Sometimes we need to face our fears and boy having anxiety it's almost impossible to do that. When you have anxiety you want to stay away from situations that make you feel panicky and for me that's driving and just going out to run errands.
   I will suggest trying some St. Johns Wort or Valerian. I would rather take something natural but I am on a prescription for my anxiety and I've been only needing it in the mornings. Also, is there someone you can talk to about your feelings? Sometimes talking about the things that bother you really helps.
   I sure hope you can find a solution and coming here sure is a step in the right direction. Good luck and God bless.

Valerie

[iamloco724]

thanks for your response and advice..i told the guy i cant handle the job right now that was monday but everynight since then ive been having anxiety still im not usually like this at all it usually only comes about when im going to do something like go to school or work or a new thing..now im just having it randomly every night some worse then others..atleast once a nice it hits me..i get hot flashes..i get the urge to want to cry sometimes i do cry sometimes i dont and hold it in..then i feel like i have to throw up i dont actually throw up just some flem comes up..i really dont know whats wrong with me ive never had anything like this before like i said usually once the event that i have anixety over is done im fine..now its been almost a week and im still going through all this