I am dealing with this almost exact same issue. It's a horrible one, and I know how you feel. I was on medication several years ago, and then tapered off of it and was fine, but recently due to an eye problem, my panic came back in full
force along with thoughts of 'what if' and 'am I going crazy' and just bizarre worries that cause me to have anxiety and panic. My job gave me two weeks off, with a Dr. note, but I'm supposed to be back in friday and I'm pretty
sure that I'm not going to be able to handle it. I was going to put a post on here today about this, so I was relieved to read your post as well, not glad someone is suffering like me, but that sometimes I feel alone in this and
I know that I am not. I've had attacks at work before and was able to return the next day, I can't really say why I was able to then but not now, maybe now more self doubting talk where as before I could blow it off after the
attack happened. Not saying that if you are unable to blow it off you are weak, because that is where I am at now. I think going to your Dr. is the very best bet. I know for me that it's my thoughts/wrongful thinking
that cause my attacks, but to combat those I need to feel like I am not going to panic at every little thing, and for me, that requires medication. I went to the Dr. today and have an appointment next week with
the same phycologist that I saw before next Tuesday. Feel free to message me and I will tell you what I was prescribed, I don't want anyone to think I'm advocating or pushing certain meds. I can only tell
you what worked for me, which may be completely different than what will work for you. But please keep the faith that something will work, I know that is so much easier said than done, especially when
panic prevents us from doing the simplest of things that we normally would not have thought twice about before, but something will help.Sometimes I keep a list of things I was
able to do that day, as cheesy as it sounds, then I reread it when I'm feeling worthless/upset over my panic disorder. Even the small things are something, like going to pick up your boyfriend, you DID it. Was it horrible, and uncomfortable, sure, but you DID it !!
Sometimes just being on here and reading posts helps me
more than I can explain. It's like having your own support Army on your side. Keep updating, I want to hear your success story, I have faith that you will have one. Let me know if I can be
of any help.
Sheree