It's strangely comforting to know we all share the same worries from all walks of life. I recently lost a good friend of mine in a tragic accident and that set off my health anxiety which set off my death anxiety. I'm a 22 y/o female and have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for about 5 years. Health anxiety got more pronounced and worse in the last 2-3 years.
A lot of you say your anxiety is worse when sleeping, I too sometimes have bad nights but I thoroughly enjoy sleeping because its the only escape I have from my anxiety.
Day in and day out for months now my HA has flared up and all I do is check my pulse, keep taking deep breaths in cause I feel short of breath, and constantly stay still in fear of moving and aggravating whatever elusive heart problem I have. I have slightly high cholesterol which I have dropped quite a bit but still need to drop some more, and due to all the stress lately I have had consistently high BP readings with the most recent one being as decent as can be at 135/80. I think I have white coat syndrome though because I get nervous at the doctors!
I am extremely rushy and impatient because I feel like anxiety is a person that has a gun that I'm running away from all the time! I'll be grocery shopping and picking out a capsicum while feeling my heart beating and racing and skipping. Everything becomes a blur from that point on. I see old people and look at them and feel like saying "ARENT YOU SCARED OF DYING?!!!" but then I feel like an idiot and think I'm just highly anxious.
My heart is my biggest concern even though a cardiologist gave me the all clear 5 years ago. I'm wanting to do another test with a cardiologist but my doctor feels this is entirely unnecessary and reassures me I'm okay. That helps some but it's still hard when you're alone and having skipped beats that seemingly come out of nowhere, or when your chest is tight, or your arm hurts, or you feel smothered... I wish I could have a live in doctor! hahaha! It just sucks with the constant dread of feeling as though ANY second you're going to just drop dead, BANG, and theres nothing you can do about it.
Love to hear from you all, share your thoughts!!