lonely

[rara]

Hey everyone.

I feel like if were to die tomorrow nobody would have known who i really was, hence remember me either. Very few would miss the "rara" they perceive me as, but most would not miss me much because they never really knew me.
That is why i am writing this diary, slowly cause i am very busy, so that someone could pick it up posthumanly...That and the fact that I would not have accomplished anything either if i were to die tomorrow.
I have never done anything. Never had a real friend, never been kissed etc. So I study and write a lot, slowly cause it is not so fun when that is all you do...
If i fail at school because of that, i would really have nothing but my niceness.

[retrogurl88]

Rara,

   Everyone makes an impact in life whether it's a small or large one, never forget that.  And just because you haven't experienced everything yet is normal, life is a journey not a race.  Be yourself and people will grow to appreciate you, for you!  Cheer up.

                                                                  ~retrogurl88

[NightOwl]

I don't exactly feel the same way as you, but nobody has "totally" got to know who I am deep down.  Because the right person has not come along and I am defensive against almost everybody and thus have not shown 100% of who I truly am.

[Xalatimo]

in the eyes of God we are all the same, whether we are studying all day and night, or have our own talk show.

[pippip]

If you being alive makes a difference to one person even if its yourself its worth living! You have contibuted some very helpful posts on the forum which i'm sure have helped and made a difference in many peoples lives even if they haven't come right out and said it. Its never to late to get out there and enjoy life. Try going out and meeting people by doing an activity or hobby you enjoy or what about volunteering? If your still in school join a club or a sport and meet people. I hope you feel better soon.

[TheFishman]

Hang in there, listen to a nice relaxing song. Why judge yourself on your impact on others, Just be "you."