Wake up and suddenly remember who you are?

[mattjam]

I have never been one to remember my dreams at all. I seem to forget them the second I wake up.

The worse my depression gets I have noticed that right when I wake up I feel normal like I used to and then all the sudden I remember the hell that I am in and become very sad all of the sudden.

It's like for a few seconds I believe that my dreams I had were my reality only to come to the realzation that is not true and I am about to go through another day of the hell that is my life.

Is this a common thing for clinical depressed people?

If I were to go though some kind of amnesia that erased in my memory all this time I have been depressed would I still be depressed? Or will the chemical imbalance in me that is making me depressed still be there keeping me depressed.

[january1987]

YES! I know this feeling. I get anxious at night just knowing that after 30 seconds of waking up I will be hit with this giant weight that is depression and anxiety. It's usually the worst for me in the morning. It's a lonely feeling, I know. Try to remember that you are in control of this. I know it doesnt feel like it because no one wants to feel this way, but in the morning, try to take a deep breath and start the day. Understanding depression and how it is effecting you is already a big step to getting better. I have had ups and downs with depression. Sometimes I don't feel it for a long time, but when I do, it feels terrible. Like I have never felt it before. I hope this helps you. It's a struggle everyday I know. believe me, I know. You are not alone in this! I am having a very hard time right now with depression. But I am glad to find this place to talk to others who struggle. Praying for peace for you.