Just postponed my wedding

[MicheleHK]

Since i got engaged my anxiety has been hard to manage, I love my fiance with all my heart and want to get married but I am not good at being the centre of attention and my therapist said my sub conscious has issues with change - as the 2 big things in my live so far have been awful (i moved from Hong Kong where i was born i had lots of friends and was outgoing to Scotland where i was bullied for being different and became quiet and withdrawn) when i moved to my own place my Gran died the same day.  I have talked to my fiance about the wedding and he understands my anxiety and is very supportive and we scaled down the wedding to help,  in the last week i have had major anxiety and feel like i just need to get it out the way so i can move on and being to feel better, we discussed a same/next day wedding and I though we had made the decision but his family are so unhappy with this decision, they don't understand anxiety and what I'm going through I know they care but i now feel like I'm being bullied into it :-( this is making me even worse so we decide to postpone the wedding for a few years as he is studying and are trying to sell my flat (another point of big change) until we move and thing settle down but am i doing the right thing I feel like I'm running away but I cant cope with the anxiety and want to be able to enjoy my wedding day not dread it,  my fiance is soo supportive and soo understanding I also don't want to let him down