So sick of scaring so easily

[tryingtolosethefear]

Feel trapped completely trapped within ourself.    Like want to break out but cant try so hard but just finding it so difficult.
   Have felt like this for years.    Cannot like get a grip on whats real and be as assertive as want to be most of the time. 
    See even when go past people like walking riding our bike its hell feel so scared and in doom.    Dont no why its like this but it just is every day.      Its no always so hard but most times it is. 
     See our flat as such santancury and refuge but its not helping that scare so easily like the shopping get it delivered online the driver comes to the door used to be fine collecting shopping but now if the door goes its like arghhhhh battle stations its horrible alarm bells everywhere.    Same with postman it takes 5 mins most times max but its so hard inside.   
     Cause avoiding is make it harder get that.   See the problem is used to live on an island with 60 000 people there very very crowded and going  out was hell there.    Thought that could escape by coming to scotland but the same issues are here.     IT comes from within really get that but why does our body hesitate so much what could go wrong its like a curse nothing will snap us out sometimes.   
   Sick of feeling like am not in control when am in control but let people take our control over.   

   Why does it have to be this intense every motion thought feeling.     

Maybe its a curse or a spell cause it sure feels like that it really does sometimes. 

  Drink like 6 cans about 5 times weekly trying to have 3 days off a week.   THe anxiety is bad the next day drinking night b4 but its only about 20 per cent maybe 30 per cent better once off the drink the night b4. 

   As far as meds go am going to go to change our venlafaxine 150 mg a day as after 3 half years think its stopped working.   
   
 So will get that sorted out.

[gloomy]

So your not actually afraid of going out like agraphobic?  You just feel uneasy when there are a lot of people around? 

What island did you live on before?

[sarahgotsissues]

Avoiding things is the worst thing you could do.

I should know.

I avoided everything that made me scared and feel out of control.. now I barely leave the house.

It has developed in to this huge thing... whereas if I had dealt with the fears at first, I know my situation would be much different.


Please don't let yourself end up as hopeless as me!

[tryingtolosethefear]

Well am sometimes afraid to leave the house but can do it.    Its people that can make us uncomfortable like being around them.
   Guernsey channel islands near south of britain. 
   Also sarah dont say your hopeless cause your not.     

[gloomy]

Well take sarahs advice (although I dont think she is hopeless either)  I think shes trying to say for you not to become so fearful it does turn into agraphobia.  What is it about other people around you?  Is it the fact you feel crowded by them or do you think they are staring at you or dont you like the interaction between you and them?