WHY DO FEEL LIKE THIS EVERY DAY.

[tryingtolosethefear]

Fear of people.     Well this is because when go out am bombarded with so many thoughts and mind cant accept it all and can only think of one thing get me the hell out of here!   Hate having to look at everyone and make eye contact its so intense for us because am so shy.  Like in our last job everyone was so connected to each other and with emphaty towards each other.   The staff are like " u dont say much do u"   I dont say much cause im scared to bring up a topic to a stranger.    When am shy its about 70 even more per cent harder then most to approach others and break the outer external bubble around us that keeps us safe.      Realise its irrational to a certain level its like when everyone is out there and in crowded situations all can is think of what the person behind us will say or think and make sure that I  can be perfect for them.   Feel inslaved almost like have to obey everyone and this is because thoughts grip to us like flys to ****.    Cant release thoughts they have an grip on us and thats why its so hard going out because am so quiet and shy feel that must agree to everything and accept every thought out there and not have the right to be ourself incase someone else things badly of it.      Dont no why feel this way its been like this forever probably been bullied didnt help and made a target and things not working out.    
    Think it comes from within well 90 per cent sure it does but why do i hate myself so much and bring my self down and not be happy and content with everything all the time like so sure so many people are.  
    Letting people is so hard am constantly in doom because am in their path.  
    Basically its like  war zone in our head everything is going on around us but feel am not part of anything and everything is coming in towards us and all do is fight these feelings.  
    Just want to be sure of ourself and confident so can finally get somewhere.    
     Want to finally quit drinking but everything is so overwelming and intrusive without drink.  
    Feel that sanity is going sometimes and that am in a dream state nothing seems to wake us up.  
  
 Does anyone else feel like this?    

[forkintheroad]

Sorry to hear you're having these problems.  You mentioned that at the last job they said you didn't speak much, but now at the new job is it going better for you?

[tryingtolosethefear]

No havent got a job right now am looking

[sarahgotsissues]

I knew this one girl who had the fear of people like you do.
She ended up getting a night stocking job.
She goes in to the stores after they close and stock new supplies.
She only has to interact with about three people, the people she is working with.

Maybe you should look in to it.

[tryingtolosethefear]

Right will try that and look into it thanks sarah.   

[retrogurl88]

I understand the whole eye contact thing, I always think people are staring at me even when they aren't.  I also get wicked uncomfortable in a face to face conversation when no one talks and there's dead air space, followed by eye contact.