Its hard to know what to write because its so unexplainable how I feel, you hit me like a strike of lightening, it was overwhelming and haunting. My body felt like there was poison spreading throughout each vien. I gasped for air, I cried, I couldnt control any part of my body and I lost all sense of control, I thought.. is this it? why me?.... why me? My brain felt like a valley of fog and I couldnt see or feel anything, felt tremendous frightening feelings that I can never explain even to myself, my heart pumped so hard and I felt like my air was running out and my time was running out.
So many times you pushed me to the floor, you kicked any happiness from me, you taunted me and I just lay there and cry but yet you just loved to watch me go through this, I felt angry and frustrated, all I wanted was for you to leave and not come back but it felt like you would never leave me
You have so much power over me, more power then anything and I hate you for what you put me through. Being so young, a student, and enjoying life I feel you took it away in the click of a finger, but there was light at the end of the tunnel....
Thank you for, for making me see my true friends, the people who love me and for seeing the strength I have inside me and the passion I have for life... when your young you tend to dismiss some things but now I never do, I look outside when its sunny and smile because of the warmth it brings me and I try to see the positives each day, I see every day as a beautiful thing, I have lost friends because of their unpleasant feelings towards you but thats where true friends come out and help you battle a fight like this.. and I finally can see who they are, the people who love me and that I have a future a head of me.
I finally feel no fear of you, there is no point you trying because I will show you the door, you will never control me again and I plan on living my life on how I want without you - because I can! I know you will always be in the distance and I welcome you to drop by for a cup of tea but dont expect to stay for long as I have things to do and a life to live!