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[dajacobs]

I just posted this in one of the other boards as I didn't realise this was here.

Hi all

I wanted to post on here and see whether anyone can relate to how I feel and if I am just going mad....

I feel like such a waste of space because I have these fears and feelings and I am married with children and scared I will finally drive them away with my stupid feelings.

I have had a few panic attacks in the past and this led to a general fear of travelling and bring on my own. (this is years before I met my wife). This all calmed down but recently we moved house and since then it has come back with a vengeance. It doesn't take much for me to start panicking and start filling with dread. In particular if I have to travel fir work I am sick with dread for the whole week before.

On Friday this week my wife is going away for two nights and all this week I have been awful. I've just wanted to spend the whole time in bed. I've been really down for long patches, quite irritable and I get periods where I just can't cope with much-like my head has turned to total mush which is why I think I'm going mad. I feel so low and I don't want to tell my wife exactly how I feel, don't want her to think I'm a total loser.