Hoping for A Little Relief...

[Durtydoo]

Well, I found this site today and I must say, as much as I hate to think of anyone else feeling the same crazy anxiety as myself, it's comforting to know that I'm not alone... I'm hoping that I can learn a thing or two about anxiety, find some comfort and acceptance, and hopefully be able to give back and help someone else along the way...

I'm a "cyber"chondriac and currently in the midst of a week-long anxiety attack, almost completely paralyzed by fear that I am dying of cancer. It's rectal cancer this time... To make matters worse, I'm the type of hypochondriac who is also terrified of doctors so the very idea of going to the doctor to be poked, prodded and probed is anything but reassuring. I have been seeing a therapist every couple weeks or so and I was taking 10mg of Lexapro for several years, but stopped in November. This is the first time I have ever had severe and steady anxiety of this intensity. I'm going to call my doctor in the morning because I really think I need to get back on the Lexapro; and I'll just have to accept that I'll probably need to stay on it for the rest of my life because, while I can intellectualize how irrational this anxiety is, I seem to be powerless to make it stop.

Looking to talk to others who are experiencing/have experienced the same thing and learn how to make it more manageable.

Thanks so much -

Durtydoo

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. Have a good look around the forum. No doubt the hypo section. You will meet many others like yourself there. People who always assume the worse. Even if the doctor says otherwise, they know better than the doctor. May I suggest you start a thread about the type of cancer you fear you have. Because we do have a member who has had anal cancer. You might have your mind put at ease there. So enjoy the forum. Lots to do. Chatroom, games, gallery and blogs. Enough to keep you going.

[sixpack]

Well, I found this site today and I must say, as much as I hate to think of anyone else feeling the same crazy anxiety as myself, it's comforting to know that I'm not alone... I'm hoping that I can learn a thing or two about anxiety, find some comfort and acceptance, and hopefully be able to give back and help someone else along the way...

I'm a "cyber"chondriac and currently in the midst of a week-long anxiety attack, almost completely paralyzed by fear that I am dying of cancer. It's rectal cancer this time... To make matters worse, I'm the type of hypochondriac who is also terrified of doctors so the very idea of going to the doctor to be poked, prodded and probed is anything but reassuring. I have been seeing a therapist every couple weeks or so and I was taking 10mg of Lexapro for several years, but stopped in November. This is the first time I have ever had severe and steady anxiety of this intensity. I'm going to call my doctor in the morning because I really think I need to get back on the Lexapro; and I'll just have to accept that I'll probably need to stay on it for the rest of my life because, while I can intellectualize how irrational this anxiety is, I seem to be powerless to make it stop.

Looking to talk to others who are experiencing/have experienced the same thing and learn how to make it more manageable.

Thanks so much -

Durtydoo

hey DD

I'm glad you found us.  There are plenty of us health anxiety folks around here.  We all have our "pet" diseases and sometimes we even change it up a little to keep things interesting.  

Welcome aboard.

[tigerpaw]

I know you will find lots of support here. Let me remind you you can access the Chat Room, after a minimum amount of posts and talk live to some of us here!  A great resource for you.

Also you can post your favorite picture in the Members Gallery.

Check out an introductory post on, "When you think no one understands ....read this."........Link: http://www.anxietyzone.com/index.php/topic,9100.0.html

Lots to do here~ 

 

[Durtydoo]

Thank you all so much... Finally, after nearly a week of being almost physically ill from fear, the urgency and terror has started to pass, I think... Thank God - I don't know how much more at that intensity I could take. I guess I could best describe it as similar to a high tide and now it's started to ebb. But just like a tide, it will return and when it does, I hope what I learn on this board (and going back on some sort of anxiety medication) will help. I've got a check-up scheduled for next week on another matter entirely so I'm sure I'll be a total headcase again in just a couple of days...

Anxiety really sucks. I'm glad I found this board and that you all are here.

DD