i think im suffering from a severe case of depression and anxiety,i went to my GP months ago and was prescribed Valium,to help me quit smoking pot and for anxiety,i had a bad panic attack(the first and only I've had)thought i was dying,i was smoking cannabis heavy daily for the past 2 years or so,and I've had problems with drugs basically throughout my entire youth and early adulthood (im 25)iv'e already posted here a few months ago in the anxiety section,but now my anxiety has settled down a bit.
i ended up becoming addicted to Valium,i didn't realise i was until i ran out,then i went through some pretty nasty withdrawals,i felt physically sick,sleep problems etc.,now my daily symptoms include: extreme fatigue,i ALWAYS feel tired,lethargic,insomnia,cant be bothered doing anything,social withdrawal,i have heaps of mates (friends) just don't really want to do anything...
thoughts of death daily,im not suicidal,i fear death,i never used to really even think about it,now i keep thinking im going to die,and regret my entire life,because i feel iv'e achieved nothing,and cant achieve anything because of the way i feel,i convince myself im suffering from some kind of underlying terminal illness (cancer,heart disease etc.)
i had blood tests done back when i was prescribed Valium,they came up clear,but i still subconsciously think i have something wrong with me because of the way i feel,i have alot of guilt as well,of not doing anything productive day in day out for the last few months,I've tried to force myself to exercise and start doing things,i just dont have the energy.
do you think i have clinical depression?