When Anxiety Rears It's Ugly Head

[bluerose]

I first got anxiety as a 13 years old in the form of OCD. I am now 51 years old.  It's been a hard life, but not without times of joy and happiness.  I have depression, anxiety and OCD.  I've been hospitalized several times over the years and was in therapy almost constantly from the age of 14 to 31.  I had my last big break in 1998 when I was 39.  The OCD and anxiety were the worst they'd ever been and I couldn't calm down.  I did the tour of hospitals that year and even had shock treatment for the depression.  I've been pretty stable with the OCD and anxiety since about 1999 thanks to medication, but the depression has still been a problem.  When my medicine is working I usually sleep 8 to 12 hours.  Several months ago I started waking up in the middle to the night, getting up and then going back to sleep 2 or 3 hours later and getting some more sleep.  A little more than a month ago the anxiety kicked back in after being almost completely out of the picture for over 10 years.  I contacted my psychiatric nurse prescriber and with his ok I went on a higher dose of 2 of my medicines.  It's working pretty well, but every now and then the anxiety kicks in like it did at 3:30 in the morning  the other day when I woke up and searched out this site.  I'm now seeing a therapist again and I think it will be comforting to have this site to go to.  I hate the anxiety.  It makes me feel so out of control and seems to be an endless pit that knows no bounds when it hits.  I'm so afraid the medicine will quit working and then I'll really be up a creek. 

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. I am sure you will meet other like minded users who share your condition. It is these people that will help you out the best. Just having others to swap accounts with. It all helps. Try and enjoy the forum as best you can. Have a good look around. Find the right area for a post on OCD or Depression and you will get loads of answers. Lot of friendly people on the site. Enjoy !!!!!!

[Smoky Jo]

Greetings,

     

Welcome, sure you will find this site helpful and
supportive.

Looks like you have been through some pretty
rough times.  Glad to hear that you are doing
better now.  Us that have anxiety, also hate
that feeling of being out of control.  I'm sure
if the medication you are taking ever poops
out, there will be another equally effective.

Once again, welcome

[tigerpaw]

I know you will find lots of support here. Let me remind you you can access the Chat Room, and talk live to some of us here!  A great resource for you. Also you can post your favorite picture in the Members Gallery. Lots to do here~
 

[sixpack]

I first got anxiety as a 13 years old in the form of OCD. I am now 51 years old.  It's been a hard life, but not without times of joy and happiness.  I have depression, anxiety and OCD.  I've been hospitalized several times over the years and was in therapy almost constantly from the age of 14 to 31.  I had my last big break in 1998 when I was 39.  The OCD and anxiety were the worst they'd ever been and I couldn't calm down.  I did the tour of hospitals that year and even had shock treatment for the depression.  I've been pretty stable with the OCD and anxiety since about 1999 thanks to medication, but the depression has still been a problem.  When my medicine is working I usually sleep 8 to 12 hours.  Several months ago I started waking up in the middle to the night, getting up and then going back to sleep 2 or 3 hours later and getting some more sleep.  A little more than a month ago the anxiety kicked back in after being almost completely out of the picture for over 10 years.  I contacted my psychiatric nurse prescriber and with his ok I went on a higher dose of 2 of my medicines.  It's working pretty well, but every now and then the anxiety kicks in like it did at 3:30 in the morning  the other day when I woke up and searched out this site.  I'm now seeing a therapist again and I think it will be comforting to have this site to go to.  I hate the anxiety.  It makes me feel so out of control and seems to be an endless pit that knows no bounds when it hits.  I'm so afraid the medicine will quit working and then I'll really be up a creek.

hello bluerose

the fear can really paralyze a person.  I think you will find some helpful folks here.  WELCOME