Freaking out again tonight!

[sweetnspunky]

Well now I am having really bad anxiety about what happens when we die. I am more scared there is nothing than even hell. I have panicked all day about this and have been crying all night. I am a Christian but it just kinda popped up in my head and has scared me so bad! I mean I want to believe in God because my love for Him is so unexplainable but when you live with someone who doesn't believe the way you do it starts to get to you. Anyone having any comforting words? I need them right now. Tomorrow is my first visit to meet my new therapist and I really don't want to go. But I asked for one and they reluctantly gave me another one since I kept canceling with my last one. This new therapist is a man and I have never had one of the opposite sex. The worst part is I have to be brought and dropped off and be picked back up since I don't drive. I will be waiting in the waiting room by myself and that really don't help matters. I want to cancel so bad, but I am scared I will not be able to get another appointment since I keep canceling because I'm nervous. Lets just say I am a mess right now about everything.   

[floridaguy65]

Hi:) This anxiety stuff can really be a pain the butt...eh? Geez, the thoughts that can get into our melons and play around with our well-being are amazing. So that being said, you DO need to hit up that therapist for some insight as to what's going on. Most everybody has some fears about seeing a new therapist in the beginning...and the therapist is well aware of that, too:) It is quite a common fear of what happens when we pass away...it's tied closely into the fear of the unkown, which gets us, too. We have to adapt to the understanding that we cannot control so many things in this world. Anxiety is a bugger, for sure. So finding ways for each of us (anxiety sufferers) to alleviate our own symptoms / irrational thoughts is paramount...we need to find ways to make ourselves, at least, comfortable in our own skins. Be active in your "recovery" on a daily basis. And GO SEE that therapist:) Feel Well:)

[sweetnspunky]

Well I ended up rescheduling my appointment for a time someone can go with me and I am feeling a lot better about that. Not feeling too much better about my new phobia/obsession though.

[floridaguy65]

Hi there Spunky:) Well, you can't go back in time and change what we've done. So done't fret too much about cancelling that appt...we've all done it in the past with therapists and docs:) But, the key is that you will have to take some sort of action before you'll see any improvement in your current situation. No change in your daily activities / thought processes / understanding = no change in your anxiety. As you know, we build things up in our head to a point where they almost seem unbearable. But as you also know, when we FINALLY get around to doing them, RARELY are they as painful as we built them up to be. Don't let anxiety eat you up...there is much help available and then you'll look back and say I wish I had done this or that a whole lot sooner!:) Be active on a daily basis in your recovery! Feel Well, Spunky:)

[sweetnspunky]

Thanks Floridaguy! Its funny to hear spunky because thats what my family call me, lol. I like it. My name is Amber by the way. Thank you for the advice, I know I need to do this. I think it will be better since next time I will have someone in the waiting area with me.