rant

[emma09]

need to vent. My anxiety hasnt been bad since last november exactly round this time. Well for past couple of weeks once or twice ive started to feel in an anxious state ! im having one of them moments now.. head feels puzzled cant think straight feel a little weak, and have the feeling of impending doom gosh this is hardwork, need to relax just cant wait to get upstairs get in bed n watch some tv ... i feel drained got the docs friday for some checks on my hormones and palps, christmas is coming my birthday and works just crap i wish i was one of them ppl where it just flew over there heads and it didnt phase them...  need a hug n a good friend who knows what its like. So wish my partner was more considerate he wont even listen to anything i say about it drives me insane and i just wanna punch his lights out! hate this crap.

[Quistis145]

Sounds like seasonal depression to me!  I have it and that is exactly what happens to me.  I feel better now on a low dose of anti-depressants.  Have you considered trying anything?

[emma09]

i was on propranolol a beta blocker lst yr for gad dont wanna try it again tho i didnt really like them, i have tried a ssri once when i was 19 n i had a bad turn on them so was put off straight away. Ive heard about the time of year effecting your feelings etc etc and i really do think it is the winter time, i think if i can get a grip of what i know what im feeling is anxiety i can gain some control back lol if that makes sense? its so weird how when youve not felt anxious for ages even tho ive felt it a thoudand times before i stil cant get a grip of what it is ... godammit.

[oneworld2010]

I feel the same. Today has been terrible. A stressful meeting in morning. Another coming up on friday. I keep thinking im about to have heart attack my palpitations terrible. I have high blood pressure though have my medication. Yesterday doctor said i have nothing to worry about. its all under control. Then wife car breaks down....in night....in rain. Short of cash...IMPENDING doom...and yet. Ive been here before. So so fed up......then trying be strong for family act like nothings wrong. I really hate this.....anything encouraging will do advice........

[emma09]

hi one world, its sooo hard keeping it from ppl holding everything together painting that fake smile on your face when inside your ready to explode!!! speaking helps, even if its just ranting, say anything! just vent on here if u like, writing things down on a night helps me :)

[oneworld2010]

thanks emma. ive spoken to my wife. shes very understanding. morrow i will go to see doctor maybe get back on xanax. but i had so hoped that i was finishing with meds, then one horrible day...bang. its very tiring....but thanks so much. i know you know what im going through and that helps....

[emma09]

where not really offered ne thing like that over here, its all ssri's nothing like xanax wish they bloody would tho haha ! hope u feel better soon :D

[Lanie]

hi one world, its sooo hard keeping it from ppl holding everything together painting that fake smile on your face when inside your ready to explode!!! speaking helps, even if its just ranting, say anything! just vent on here if u like, writing things down on a night helps me :)

I hear you on that one! It's SO hard keeping it from everyone else. During stressful or new situations, I struggle to maintain a happy face. I just want to burst into tears or tear myself down emotionally. I don't do well under pressure - it takes a lot of energy out of me. I wish I was stronger and could just push it aside like other people can. But I do the best I can and day by day I get better at dealing with my issues

Some days though it's just not enough...some days I just need to let it all out, like venting. Or crying. It does help.

Hang in there. I found things do get better in time and that things get better faster when I spend time on this community...go to church...stay productive...and do things that I enjoy. It makes me feel less hopeless and helpless.