Question about my symptoms

[craynation]

I am a 33 year old male with two children a 2 year old and a 2 month old...

At the end of 2004, my Father died suddenly at the age of 60....My mother was not very nice to him, and even had an affair on him (which I didnt find out until a week ago).

Things have been tough.....

I woke up one morning last December with a HORRIBLE burning  headache and really started to panic about it.

I then started having muscle aches esp sitting and my hands and feet would have "pins and needles"...

I also had my first panic attack 2 months ago.... I have always been a worrier esp about health, family and finances.... Things have gotten worse since my Father died.

I had all the tests imaginable (blood tests, MRI and Cat Scans) and everything is normal.... One time at the Dr, my blood presue was sky high which is not normal for me.

I was put on some Medication for GAD 2 weeks ago and I know it will take some time. I still get the headche and muscle aches, my neck is very tight all the time... When I first started all this I even had little shocks behind my eyes and top of my head..... I very rarely get the shocks on my head now. I sometimes get this "hot" feeling in my entire body(kind of like sweating on the inside if that makes sense. I also clench my teeth and have been to the dentist, I am going for a second opinion, because he wants to charge me $1000 for a splint to correct "TMJ"

I have had Prostatitis, IBS and Exczema in the past.... the "Prostate" problem really did me in 6 years ago and I had the same kind of reaction emotionally as I am having now....,.

I was tested for MS and during the days leading up to the MRI I was out of control automatically assuming that it would come out postivie for MS.

I am exercising now and have lost 20 pounds (I was 223 at 5"8' now I am 203 I want to be 175)

This is my story, I have a gut feeling that it is GAD ( itend to doubt what doctors tell me ) but I am still always worried that it is something else....

Does anyone have any kind words or similar experiences (muscle aches, shocks etc) to ease my mind?


Thanks,

Chris

[craynation]

Michelle,

the shoks were  like shots of pain on the top of my head and behind my eyes..... they seemed to get worse in the begginning when I was the most anxious.

Little shots of pain basically.


chris

[apple]

Those shock like feelings in the eyes and head are my symptoms as well...The meds keep them at bay but sometimes I am so bad the meds can't fight it and I have to wait until I'm exhausted or over what I'm anxious about.

You are not alone...or wierd!!

Apple

[craynation]

Apple,

You dont know how much I want to thank you about sharing the symptoms with me..... It is comforting to know that I share the shock symptoms with you ( I dont like that you have them though).

If I could ask, what Meds do you take and what is your story? Did you have a sudden on set like I had? I feel that my Dad dying was a MAJOR trigger for what going on with me now.


Chris

[apple]

I've got a busy night but I'll post to you soon...I have a long history with GAD and everything else.

Apple

[basketcase]

Chris,
  I am sorry that you have had to join this group of people who live day to day with this horrible disease. I've suffered with GAD for 10 yrs and my symptoms got worse after my mom died 4 yrs ago. I've read a lot about GAD and what I've found is that if you had a parent that was nervous and high strung that you can end up the same later on. My mom was always a nervous wreck and she developed depression and anxiety in her 50's. She never was able to over come it and took countless drugs which only made things worse because of side effects. She even saw 4 different psychiatrists but she never opened up to any of them so they never were able to help her.
   I am sorry about your father's passing as it is hard to lose a loved one. I lost my dad suddenly as well and it was a shock to the family. I still think of him and miss him even though its been 19 yrs since he died. I am sure his passing has had a big impact on you and I suggest that you find a grief support group or maybe see some kind of counselor. I've had one session so far with a counselor but it was just a visit so she could get an idea of my situation. I see her next week and I am looking forward to it as I have so much I want to tell her.
    Glad you found this website. Are you taking any medication? With symptoms as bad as yours, you should take something. I took xanax for 2 yrs and now I take Klonopin. I wouldn't be able to get through a day without it. I wish you all the best as you try to find a solution. Stay in touch, ok? God bless.

Valerie

[apple]

Chris,

Valerie said it right for me, my Mom was and is a wreck, she suffers from anxiety but refuses to commit to treatment because "she is fine".  I suffered manic depression as a teenager, panic disorder as a young adult and anxiety now.

Currently I'm on Nortripline(anti-depressant)every day, Clonazepam(anti-anxiety) only when I need it, and I am taking Risperdal(anti-psychotic) everyday. The Risperdal is because my EX-psychiatrist changed my medication too many times in one month and I got severely depressed and had feelings of rage...but I feel better than I have in years since I've been on it.  The first 4 days my tongue felt really fat and I talked funny, The possible long term side effects are really scary, I wish I could stay on this stuff forever.

Yes a sudden something happening can bring out the anxiety big time...this past year it was trying to quit smoking...uhh..I'm smoking again because even with meds my anxiety is too much without it.

I'm sorry about your Dad, I'm not looking forward to my turn...I know it will come I just hope its not for a long time..

On a good note...I just got engaged to my hunny!!!  I'm on an emotional high right now and I can't slow down...

Hope you start to feel better

Apple

[mbabynz]

hi Chris i to have the head thing going on a pain in the a** but comming on the site i realize alot of my symptoms people also have .it was nice to know I'm not alone  ;)i take xanax and ativan that seems to help with my anxiety and panic attacks some days are good some are not and then you get the days when everything gets thrown at you but I'm still looking for answers but the help on here is awesome.
cheers mbabynz