ever just get away??

[65gto]

what if i just left right now and drive somewhere I've never been and just start over, like across the country. I am only 20 but I feel like I have already messed up this life. I feel like the only people it would effect is my parents, i feel like I have somehow pushed all my friends away. I mean have no idea how i pushed them away, i try really hard to be nice to everyone, and i feel like i am a really nice guy but i am still sitting here alone on a friday night in a college town. I sick of being this way, im getting so restless.

I mean it couldn't be that simple tho, im in college classes trying to get an engineering degree, but even this I am questioning. I was always so sure that I wanted to be an engineer, but i don't know anymore. I am already three years into it, but i just cant focus on my classes anymore. Im sick of all the numbers, all the constant studying, the stress.

A part of me just want to quit everything, leave everyone, and go try to live somewhere exciting...do something exciting. I know this is something I would never do, i guess thats part of my problem. I've always been so focused on my future and I've worked so hard to get to where I am, but it feels like I don't want it anymore. I'm so sick of feeling alone, being alone. I'm tired of worrying about my future, where ill end up. I just don't know what to do anymore, i cant get out of my own head.

thanks for reading my venting haha, does anyone have any advice?

[cant_sit_still]

dude, I'm a 22 year old male and I felt the exact same way as you for 2 years now. I feel like I just wanna travel across the country or to the tip of south america! What I did was last year decided to leave college to figure out what I really want to study. I've decided on psychology which I think is because i've spent so much time trying to figure myself out. But I think thats what makes me apt to the major. :). Anyway, I would suggest trying to look inwardly and maybe, if you really wanted to, step away and just EXPERIENCE the world. After all, experience is the best teacher!

[65gto]

thanks for the advice man, I have been trying to figure myself out for a while now, i think that might be what is making me feel so restless all of a sudden, right now I kinda want to just go somewhere anywhere and experience the world like you are saying, but i know its not that simple. If only it could be! but psychology has been on my mind lately for the same reason. I'm glad I'm not the only one that is going through this!

[popeye]

spoke last nite with you.maybe you should run away and you will find yourself.need some money thoughand take the car, only one bad thing  you nwii need to come back,good luck

[Cuchculan]

I seriously think so many people have this idea in the head that if they left their life as it is and moved on elsewhere everything would change for the better. But is that a sollution or is that running away from the problem? What would be different in a new town. Besides the people. Your mind is still your mind. It still houses the same thoughts. It is not an uncommon though. It is a thought we have all had at one time or another. Reminds me of a tv proramme. The fall and rise of Reginald Peron. He was a depressed man who decided to run away from his current life. Left a pair of shoes and clothes on the top of some cliffs. But he ended up back where he lived. The only difference was a moustache. And nobody knew it was him. Or so they pretended. It was comedy. Hilarious. Even ended up back with his wife. Created this story of who he was. Though she knew who it was. She played along with it. He ran from the life that was getting him down and came back a different person and ended up with the same woman in the same job. Shows that the idea has even been made into a sitcom. Used to love the show.

[65gto]

thanks everyone, great advice. I guess i really just like toying with the idea of starting over, thinking about all the things that i would do different, wondering if doing all those things would make me happier. I know what your saying, my mind is still my mind. but i cant help but wondering if i was in a different situation would i have the same mindset? If i was around people who cared about me and actually wanted to hang out with me, would i still feel so alone? I mean i do have friends, but i cant help but feel that they aren't true friends, they aren't there when i need them. Im just tired of being surrounded by people and still not being able to shake the feeling that i'm alone. how much does depression and anxiety depend on the environment that you are in? 

[cant_sit_still]

cushculan has a point and its whats stopped me from getting up and going. And that is that u have to try to be happy where you are because, your mind is coming with u wherever u go. So, no matter what, if ur not well ur not gunna feel well wherever u are.

[WineKitty]

If I had the money I would spend the remainder of my life traveling.

[crazygirl1]

I seriously think so many people have this idea in the head that if they left their life as it is and moved on elsewhere everything would change for the better. But is that a sollution or is that running away from the problem? ..... how amazingly clever is that show you talked about cuchculan..can you imagine pulling that off?? lol

[Irén]

i tried to travel and live in different place. at first my anxiety went better but in few months it started to go worse and worse. finally i came back and anxiety went even more worse. it was a baaad idea for me

[abeja_reina_1989]

I can completely relate. I was dealing with a lot in 2009: I was in a bad relationship, my grandma was diagnosed with Lymphoma and I had to quit my job due to panic attacks. I felt like I was losing myself and going crazy. I ended up moving from Washington State to Reno with a guy I barely even knew. It ended up working out great as far as the new relationship goes.. him and I are still together and that was the best decision I ever made in my life. HOWEVER, the worst mistake I ever made in my life was just up and running from my problems. No matter where you live, no matter how far you are away from where you were dealing with stress, you will alway still have to deal with the stress of being who you are. By this I mean... when I moved, sure for a while my anxiety was better because things were fresh and new but after a little while, all the pain came back and I realized I missed the comfort of my old town, of knowing people I loved were near.

Please think about this a lot before you do it. You may just need a vacation.. Take care

[ZivaD]

I got away earlier this year, and moved to another state. After two weeks I was scraping for money to get back home.