So I talked to a schizophrenic for the first time in my life today. More accurately, he talked and I nodded politely. He was difficult to follow, as one minute he would be talking perfectly normally about his situation, thanking me for the money I gave him, and next talking about the woman in his head and asking how she could get so big and concluding that it must be because she is inside his head and she was married to his brother...so on and so forth. One would think that meeting this individual that it would reinforce in me the idea that I am NOT schizophrenic, but for some reason it just left me all weirded out.
I have these fears as I recently had a break down and my brain just basically wouldn't relax for a year straight. I was in literal panic mode 24/7, starting with health anxiety and then morphing to my mental health. It didn't help that I was barely eating (I lost 30 pounds), not sleeping and not moving from my spot on my moms couch. Then throw Ativan in the mix and it was a CRAZY PARTY! Everything was surreal and terrifying and I must be hallucinating everything around me! I can unequivocally say it was the worst, most painful experience of my life. I think my biggest issue was, sure people have fears of schizophrenia, but do they go so far as to freak out about it 24/7 to the point where they could convince someone around them that they are crazy? It just makes me think I must be unbalanced in some way. So as one can imagine, the fear surfaces from time to time.
Can anyone relate? lol