Didn't do so well in church....whats my problem??

[butterflygirl]

So I went to church on Sunday...this was hard for me because I get anxiety when I have to leave my house....but I faced it and did it....

The chairs consist of about 5 rows of 20 chairs....the Pastors wife told all of us to scoot into the middle together to open up the outside seats for latecomers...I always sit on an outside seat, and didn't really realize why until now....when she said to do this, I was gripped by fear. I dont know why...worried about being squished together, not being able to breath, etc...but I did it because I didn't want to look bad.....after a few minutes, I was ok...THEN when the song service was over, and the Pastor started his sermon, the Pastors wife went and closed the doors that lead out into the hall....again I was gripped by fear...I felt trapped...afraid that I wouldn't be able to get out if I needed too and wanted so badly to go open the doors!!!

I really felt crazy! What is my problem??? 

[littlesammy]

i think maybe because you had to move, you felt out of your comfort zone (the seat on the edge of the row) I know that i feel uncomfortable if i am pushed into the  middle of a row, be it at church, the movies or anywhere. I like the feeling that i can leave without disturbing anyone if my anxiety is too high

[jane134]

Well that sounds like classic panic disorder to me. The need to find a quick exit without attracting attention to yourself. I suffer with this too but i've had found CBT most helpful and i can deal with most situations now. Maybe this is something that you could look into?

[MsPanic]

I feel the same exact way when I go 2 public places. I have 2 have the seat closest 2 the exit. & I hate unplanned attention. If u find an answer, please drop me a line or 2.