Wanted to state my deal/My issue

[HONDA929]

I have always been a worry type of person.  When I was little I had the sleeping problems.  My mom would have to spend like 2 hours getting me to sleep when I was 10 or 11.  This went on for awhile until I got comfortable leaving in a new state and  house.  You know all the things that go with moving to a new state.  Then I was OK well expect for the mind always racing and a little bit of the worrying.  I also thought that I had IBS that has been in issue for a while to.  I am 27 now, married and in the passed 8 weeks.  I have gotten really worse.  I found out that we are going to have a baby.  Not good for us with anxiety.  It was great though just a lot to think about and worry about.  So I gave up smoking so this was not good for stress and anxiety.  And the problem that I was having that I couldn't handle was I felt that I had to go to the bathroom ( And it wasn't pee).  So I kept getting the feeling that I had to go every time I had an attack.  Which seem to be getting worse.  It was in bad places to in the car to and from work, gas station, etc, meetings at work just places where I had no escape.  So it is pretty rough.  It got pretty bad I started missing family get togethers and other things not wanting to leave then house just for work which was a challenge. Like I said this has gone on for 8 weeks.  So I make the appointment with my doctor.  I tell him the story he asked if I would like to try and get on some med's of course I needed something.  So I am on Flouxetine just 10mg to get me started.  So we will see how this works.  I sure hope so.  I have to see him again in a couple of weeks.  I will keep you updated on my progress.

[mbabynz]

hi hope things do work out for I'm off on holiday for 10 days so when i get home id like to read more on what you have posted i am on xanax and ativan but want something to work better for my anxiety so ill be reading with interest. i hope it works out for you i have a few posts on here so u can understand me a bit better take care and good luck with getting it sorted.
cheers mbabynz

[apple]

It is especially hard when your pregnant, I hope your husband knows and is supportive of you dealings with anxiety.

My first pregnancy my ex pulled away from me and left me for a skinny girl in my 7th month, I thought that was the cause of my anxiety.  Then 5 years later I got pregnant again (Joy!!!)  My then ex was not supportive to my anxiety...one morning I woke up all anxious, I told him I wasn't in a good mood and he flipped!!  He yelled at me to get out of my mood and threw me around, I again thought it was this situation that caused my anxiety.  (oh by the way I left his sorry butt)

I hope you keep the communication open with your husband...we don't always know how to get thru the anxiety so imagine the man that loves you watching it and wanting to help. By letting him know how you feel, and if possible what he can do (hold you, leave you alone for X amount if minutes etc..) you both can get through this pregnancy in a  positive way.

Congratulations...if you need to vent frustration with your anxiety this is the place!!

Apple

[HONDA929]

I guess I wrote this a little to unclear.  I am the guy in this with the problem.  I found out my wife and I our going to have a baby.  So I hope that clears it up for everyone.  I am sorry that you have had so much trouble with those couple of bad guys.  They don't speak for all of us.  Anyway I will keep you up to date on the med's.  I just know that anxiety is powerfull
HONDA929

[apple]

Yeah..sorry, it can be just as hard on the guy as the woman. We'll be here for you.
I do have an amazing man in my life now for over 3 years, he handles me with so much patience and love.  That makes working thru this so much easier.

Apple

[HONDA929]

Thats great to hear!!!!

[HONDA929]

Well I had a bad attack yesterday.  I felt I couldn't get away.  Like I was trapped.  I had to call into work cause I did think I could last 12 hours of work.   Now I have 4 days off to get my self together,  I really think I am a mess right now.  Hopefully this is the worst of it cause I really cant take it anymore.  Iam so sick of feeling like this.  I really do hope this medicine makes me feels better and I can move on from this.  I just wish I would have started on this medicine a long time ago.  The consint worry and fear really do suck and I cant what for it to be gone.  I also feel that some of the side effect are happening to.  I need that to pass as well cause right with my four days off I don't want to do anything.  I just want to stay home.  Not sure that is the greatest idea but fear and worry are really in control and I really need to snap out of it.  I will keep you posted as the days go by.

[apple]

Remember it will get better, only slowly, in a month the meds will be in full effect and I hope its exactly what you need! ;)  Keep up the struggle...

[HONDA929]

Thanks apple!  I will keep that in my mind.  Just hearing positive things seems to help.  I will keep everyone post on my progress.  Thanks again

[HONDA929]

Monday didn't go as planned.  I woke up in really bad shape.  I was having very bad thoughts of hurting myself.  I have had them a couple times before.  This time is wasn't good.  So I was thinking it was caused by the drugs I was take, and it was the side effects.  So I gave the doctors a call.  (Well I talked to a nurse she was helpful though.)  She set me up to see my regular doctor later in the day.  But before I see my doctor she wanted me to see a therapist.  I was a little worry cause I didn't think that would help.  But did it ever!  She explained why and what causes the problems I was having which was very helpful.  I left there feel so good it was a complete 180.  No joke.  She knew what she was talking about.  So I went to me regular doctor right after that.  We talk what happend that day he felt bad and was concerned.  He reassured me that it was going to be ok and felt I was ready to move up in my amount of drugs I am up to 20mg of Prozac.  He also gave me some sleep pills cause I haven't been sleeping very well.  Plus when I wake up after a couple of hours of sleeping at night I am wide wake like I got 8 hours.  Which he was worried about so that was the reason for the sleeping pills.  I have another appointment with him Monday.  To check with me again on my progress. So far right now its been a lot better since this passed Monday so I am really happy about that.  I will keep you all post on my progress.

[apple]

reading this reminds me of working out the meds, I have no patience.
I would like to see how this pans out for you...a victory for you would make ME feel good.
Sorry its a slow tough road...your doin great!

Apple

[basketcase]

Honda,
  Not to put a damper on all your struggles but taking Prozac isn't the best choice for anxiety, it can make symptoms worse. I so understand all you're going through as I have struggled with anxiety for 10 yrs but it's only been the last 4 that things have gotten worse. Please continue to see the therapist as I feel that will help a lot. Also, ask your doctor about Klonopin and Celexa. I must admit I stay away from anti-depressants as they can up your seratonin levels and make you more hyper. I don't like the side effects of those drugs either as I tried Paxil but it made me nauseous. I have started talking with a therapist and I have many issues to work on. My anxiety makes it so I can't drive as my first panic attack happened while I was driving. It's a vicious cycle as people like us want to avoid the situations that cause the feelings of panic. I HATE being like this, my mom had the same thing and I saw what it did to her. She got so bad she couldn't even communicate and just sat and stared out the window.
    Don't give up and don't think you're alone. We are here for you and we understand. I know there is an answer for you and all of us. Try and find things that help you relax and think good thoughts and look at the good things that are in your life. I think we become to critical of ourselves and end up talking in negative terms. God bless and I hope to hear more from you as well. Congrats on the up coming baby, made with love :)  Experiencing the birth of a child is a miracle, I know, I was a nurse and I also saw 4 of my grandkids births. Hang in there, ok?

Valerie

[HONDA929]

I know that Prozac can take awhile to kick in and its only been almost 2 weeks they say that this can take up to a month so we will see what happends then.  I want to thank the both of you for the helpful advice.  I look to this forum for help and it has helped.  I feel being on here and talking about the issues we are all having can only help us.  Val if Prozac doesn't work out I will be sure to ask about those other to drugs.  Thanks again you 2

[basketcase]

Honda,
  Oh, it's nothing. Always willing to help someone out. I wish you well with the Prozac as everyone responds differently to medications. Hang in there.

Valerie

[mbabynz]

hi there my doc wont put me on antidepressants I'm on xanax and ativan i don't have them everyday only when I'm really bad.at the moment panic is annoying me but with help from apple  ;) with her amazing book i can see the light.i hope the meds work for you and best of luck.
cheers
mbabynz

[HONDA929]

Just wanted to give everyone an update.  I have been on the meds for a month now.  Things have gotten better.  I will get a scare here and there but it is nothing like it use to be.  I feel a lot more confident when I go out and stuff.  I still have appointments will my doctor in a month and will me therapist.  So I would say I cured or anything.  I would say I am dealing with it a lot better.  I feel better all around to.  So we will keep taking small steps and it will be even better.  So until next update thanks for the help and info.  Will keep everyone posted. 

[mbabynz]

im so happy your making good progress i wish you all the best with whats been going on with you.its nice to hear some success stories on here.
good luck
take care
mbabynz