I dont want to lose her as a friend.

[Sairino]

My girlfriend of four and a half years and I recently broke up. We were both hurting each other with our issues and they exacerbating each other, so we mutually agreed to break up but still remain friends. I didn't deal with it well at first, but I know it was for the best. A couple weeks ago I found out that she had been making out with this guy that she was intersted in. I freaked out, got angry and depressed. I couldn't stop thinking about it, or get the images of them together out of my head. They still come sometimes, but its not constant bombardment like it was before. I don't know how to deal with the idea of her being with someone else.

 I really want to stay friends with her, and she wants it too. We both know each other and each others problems better than anyone else. She can help me better than anyone else. She's my best friend. I don't want to lose that. Will getting help with my anxiety, depression, and whatever else make this easier to deal with, or is this just a completely separate issue that i have i deal with as well? This doesn't seem like a healthy level of pain to me, and I'm really hoping that its a symptom or some disorder so I know I won't always be this bad.