idk what to do

[Jorden_M]

My anxiety and depression is causing me to me an absolute....jacka$$ to my wife...i feel like im borderline emotionally abusive and i cant handle that! im just grumpy all the time after work, all i want to do it sit at the computer and...be a damn loner. im paranoid im sick with some disease that'll kill me...i treat her like a yo-yo. one minute i want her around the next...i want to be left alone. i know its depersonaization but i dont know how to control it. i cant afford 100 dollars a session weekly for a therapist, i wont take meds casue im too scared of them... but i dont want to lose my wife either...i feel like i cant control my moods...i have a serious decision to make...my anxiety literally has me bi-polar and my GERD has me freaked out. (the gerd i have/take meds for) i just want..me back. advice welcome

[surfmonkey]

Hey there :) well there are lots of homeopathic remedies you could take! They won't hurt you or turn you into a zombie either! I've taken some and I'm not a medication taker. Can you explain a bit more?

[Jorden_M]

sure what do want me to explain? the meds or my grumpyness w/ the wife?