Over 10 years of suffering

[Wornoutworrier]

I'm about to turn 40 years old and I started suffering from health anxiety when I was 27.  I don't remember it starting slowly, just one incident and then it\\\\ it snowballed.  I've tried therapy, drugs and all matter of distractions.  There are times when I feel like an idiot because I will think that I'd rather be dead then to feel this way.  I find it so ironic that I'm depressed and anxious over having something that will kill me and think I can always 0473 if it gets too bad.  My therappist says this is normal so I wonder if anyone else in this group feels this way.  I worry that as I get older there will be more chance of things going wrong with my health so I fear hat the disease will get worse.  I wanted to reach out to others who understand how this disorder affects a person's life.  It seems to be one dragon after another that needs to be slayed.  Sometimes its hard to fight the good fight so I'm glad to see others that are in the battle.

[FeelingOptimistic]

Hi Wornout,

I've suffered all my life but I know that in 2001, when I had a health scare, my anxiety, and health anxiety started to result in panic attacks and depression.  I have also felt from time to time, that I can understand why certain people in certain situations resort to ***** because they are in such pain and cannot fathom a way out.  I was in a deep, dark hole for many years and didn't feel any joy in anything, and my comfort level and my own world was getting smaller and smaller.  I have kids and didn't want to miss out on ANY of their activities because my "What if...??" thinking took over.   Luckily for me, when I tried meds, the crap shoot turned in my favor and the first one helped me.  I know it's hit or miss with meds, maybe you haven't found the one yet? 

I'm glad you are here because you will find good information and advice from members here.  Keep posting and I look forward to seeing you around.

No matter how badly things feel right now, this is temporary and you can beat this thing!!

Take care!
Feeling Optimistic

p.s.  I'm 42 and sometimes this illness makes me feel 82.  (sigh)  Hang in there!

[sixpack]

hi wornout

welcome aboard.  I'm sorry you are getting beaten up so badly.  I think you will find many helpful folks here.   

[tigerpaw]

I know you will find lots of support here. Let me remind you you can access the Chat Room, and talk live to some of us here!  A great resource for you. Also you can post your favorite picture in the Members Gallery. Lots to do here~
 
   
   
         

[Wornoutworrier]

Thanks for everyone who replied.  It's really nice just to see others that understand.  I struggle to seem normal since most people don't get that I can't "just not think about it"   I know that it gets better and worse at times but I've come to the realization that it won't ever go away. 

[brainwreck]

I know just how you feel, sometimes I'd rather be dead than feel this way for the rest of my life.  Keep talking, you are not alone.  xoxo

[GreyGoose]

I'm about to turn 40 years old and I started suffering from health anxiety when I was 27.  I don't remember it starting slowly, just one incident and then it snowballed.  I've tried therapy, drugs and all matter of distractions.  There are times when I feel like an idiot because I will think that I'd rather be dead then to feel this way.  I find it so ironic that I'm depressed and anxious over having something that will kill me and think I can always 0473 if it gets too bad.  My therappist says this is normal so I wonder if anyone else in this group feels this way.  I worry that as I get older there will be more chance of things going wrong with my health so I fear hat the disease will get worse.  I wanted to reach out to others who understand how this disorder affects a person's life.  It seems to be one dragon after another that needs to be slayed.  Sometimes its hard to fight the good fight so I'm glad to see others that are in the battle.