The biggest issue for me right now, and what pushed me to seek help, is that I am waking up in the middle of the night, usually around 3am and feeling anxious and on edge. I wake up confused and not able to understand time. I can read the numbers but I don't know if 3am is or isn't the time I should be waking up, and so I burst out of bed and turn on my light and try to get ready for work thinking I've slept through my alarm somehow. Then after running around and having the light on for a bit I wake up some and realize I still have at least 3 hours before I need to get up, so I lay back down and try to sleep. Then it happens again within the hour, and maybe this time I'm less inclined to think I'm late, because I remember waking up before, but I still don't "get" what time it is and I'm on edge. This repeats until it actually is time for me to get up.
On the weekend it doesn't happen as much, and I think part of why the weekends are better is because during the week I sleep alone in another room, and weekends I sleep in my boyfriend's room with him (we have different schedules). So the scenery change means it isn't a work day, and so I "get" that when I wake up. Also knowing there won't be an alarm going off in a few hours helps too. Nevertheless there have been times I've woken up confused on a Saturday morning worried it's actually Friday or something.
This causes me great stress because not only can I not stay asleep throughout the night, I'm freaking out whenever I wake up. I take citalopram daily, for anxiety and mild depression, but I'm not sure if that's working (been on it for 3 months, still having issues) and I was also given trazodone to use "as needed" for sleep, but I stopped taking it (with doc's permission) because it made me feel like a zombie. He told me if I'm that sensitive to the trazodone, then Ambien would be very very strong. I can take over the counter sleep/allergy stuff, but only if I can make sure I get at least 9 hours of sleep, and I can't always do that.
I also need to add that when I do sleep more, I have bad nightmares either about things from my past that feel real bad emotionally, or just bad/negative themes that don't feel as bad, but are things you would see in scary movies or something.
I need to have another appointment with the doctor to talk about this stuff more, but I was wondering if anyone else had night time confusion and anxiety? Did you find anything the helped?