Can't sleep, heart pounding

[apple]

So we all post about the hardships of bad anxiety, well I am suffering a bout of anxiety and its over something good.  Both ends of the scale affect me...My heart is pounding and my mind is racing...I went to a retirement party tonight and I met up with a kid I used to babysit, only he's a MAN now with wife and kids,  I haven't seen him since I was 14 years old.  So all the memories are flooding my mind.  Then my husband is told that he is being hired in the retired mans place, I'm out of my mind because he has wanted this for years...Vacations with pay, better benefits...I CAN"T SLEEP...

I've taken my clonazepam and my anxiety is over taking that!!!!

I'm shaking and my husband is cutting lumber and I wish I could sleep like him.  I am going to be so tired in the morning...I am experiencing the same symptoms of bad anxiety over "BAD" things only I"m ecstatic!!!

Does anyone else get the same problems when facing very exciting and wonderful things, Its a great feeling but I am going to pay for this tomorrow!!!

Apple

[mbabynz]

hey apple i get that sometimes it like i have a rush of Adrenalin go through me can be very scary.I'm told it is Adrenalin pumping through but way to much and it don't know how to stop.its exciting as well as scary.my only advice go with it girl breath it through and hopefully it will all work out.
cheers mbabynz p.s I'm having every test done on me i think I'm turning into a hypochondriac(no joke)my doc sending me for a head scan( cripes) what next on the list oh thats right ears and throat getting checked and while I'm at i might get the eyes checked as well and what ever else there is to get done i still got the head thing going (sigh) and i still haven't sorted out the meds.

[apple]

Well I paid for not sleeping yesterday thats for sure, now the bug I was fighting since last Thursday has taken over...I am sick.  thanx for replying, I really needed that.

Sometimes I can relate to you with hypoc...if left alone usually whatever I am worried about is found tho.  (I was just a hypo for 3 years until they found out i had endometreosis when I was 18)

Keep working on a solution for yourself, if you do find a medication that will help you, it would at least let you know when your worry is indeed a medical problem, and not anxiety over the next thing that you think of.

Yes... going with the anxiety even when it is good is the only thing I can do...Wait for exhaustion and then pay for it the next day if it happens at night. I wish this wasn't so...but I'd rather have the good than the bad any day..

apple

[basketcase]

Apple,
  WOW! I am thrilled for you but can't say that I have had anxiety over something good. Can't remember the last time something good happened to me  I will say that I am sure that a good thing can have the same affect on your body as something bad with the adrenaline pumping. For me, I get palpitations and the last 2 weeks have been bad as I am worried about my son who is going in for back surgery and my daughter is expecting a baby any day now. There's just to much going on for me to handle and I am ready for my rubber room.
    Take it easy and try and relax. Again, congrats to your husband.

Sincerely,
Valerie

[apple]

Funny, I was just talking to my friend about the rubber room today!!!
Hope all goes well for your son that is stressful...and congrats to your daughter hope all is smooth...

When its all okay, take the down time and unwind, you will have deserved it!!

[mbabynz]

talking about the heart pounding i was doing something good today went to get my eyelashes tinted and a hair trim well blow me i got to just sit on the chair my heart was pounding so fast(i wanted to run out)and she started to do my eyes all the while I'm sitting there freaking out trying to cope.did my breathing exercise calmed done a bit she put the stuff on and said keep your eyes closed for 10 Min's( that felt forever)my heart starts pounding I'm thinking i wanna open my eyes but i cant ooh gosh what do i do i sat moved around the chair palms where sweaty trying to concentrate trying to breath slower finally the buzzer went off she washed the stuff off I'm over the moon i can see then it was haircut time i chatted the whole hair cut(trying not to think what happened).i came out of there very happy i survived it all.Came home exhausted .hope that cheered you up 

[apple]

Yes it did cheer me up!!  This is the part of anxiety nobody talks about. (including the ones that do talk about it)
I haven't talked to my behavior therapist about this aspect of anxiety...I think I will talk to her about this next time I see her. 

Its like I always feel things on total opposite sides of the scale...REAL happy...REAL excited...REAL angry...REAL sad...REAL worried...REAL nervous.

So if I only work on the BAD area of my anxiety then that leaves the other side to overtake...But should I really worry about it??

For the love of God, I'm complaining about feeling REAL GOOD!!!

maybe thats because I woke up from a bad dream...and couldn't get back to sleep... I've been up since 2:00am and my heart is pounding again and all these exciting things from of late AND the past and the future are sweeping through my mind and I cant stop. Ive done my breathing exercises but a quick vision disturbs me, I feel like I could do laps around my neighborhood right now!? This is going to leave me tired AGAIN tomorrow!!  I wish I could feel like this during the day so my kids and my husband could get this part of me!!!

this is ridiculous!! I need to sleep, I need to be able to give my family the best of me and that cant happen between the hours of 2:00 to 5:00 in the morning.  I know by 5:30 I'll have exhausted myself and I wont get up with my husband, and I'll be half asleep getting my kids ready in the AM.

Why do I fixate on things good and bad?  I think about something and obsess over it. My mind is slowly dragging me to constant exhaustion...

[mbabynz]

hey apple glad you liked my little story.well today not been to good after yesterdays episode i had to give in and take half a xanax made me feel a bit better (after i freaked for 20 mins taking it) I'm off for my head scan tommorrow if they find anything next week ears are getting checked I'm just about through my check list of what could be wrong.frustrating as it is i gotta keep trying to figure it out.anxiety may well be the cause but i gotta be sure.I'm going to Fiji in 10 days and I'm freaking about that (i gotta get a grip a holiday with no kids)maybe some talking to myself thats its gonna be OK might do the trick but ohhhhhhh well i can always take a pill!!!!!!!!!!!
keep smiling
take care mbabynz

[basketcase]

Apple,
 Hi! Yeah, I sure wish I knew why we react the way we do to all things, whether good or bad. I know that just being asked to go to lunch or dinner out and I freak. I told that to my husband for the first time last weekend and he couldn't believe it. I told him just to go out and run errands I have to take a pill and get myself under control, somewhat. I truly hate being like this and wish that I could feel normal about life.
  If you EVER come up with an answer, I'd sure be appreciative. I can't imagine living the rest of my life like this as it's already been 10 yrs. I still have the memory of my mom who suffered with anxiety, sitting in her chair and staring out the window. She got to the point where she wouldn't even talk to anyone. How sad huh?
   Thanks for you input and take care.

Valerie