Anybody felt so hyper-aware of their body that it feels weird to move?

[wilksdaman]

This is dragging on and on and on. I'm so tuned in to my body and my thoughts, I can't see it lifting, EVER?!

Even performing the simple movement of bringing a glass to my mouth now feels so strange, uncomfortable and alien.
I've tried ignoring it, but it doesn't help. It feels like the anxiety is right at the surface of my skin all the time and trying to break out.
The depersonalisation sucks so bad. Thinking way too much about what I am, my surroundings etc. It feels like ive literally become frightened of myself!

My body feels like a puppet, I feel 'outside' of myself. As soon as I wake up I'm now automatically tuning into my thoughts and feelings, and it seems to occupy my thoughts at least 80% of the time until I go to bed.

Just looking at other people, their movements etc, can freak me out.

Ive been referred to an 'anxiety and depression' group, though I cant see how talking will do much.
Im thinking i might just have to bite the bullet and get some medication in me to try and clear my mind!

BOOOO! 

[Kallie]

Sounds like you might be having derealization/depersonalization, it's sort of when you no longer feel attached to reality... and when you feel "outside" yourself. Almost like you are watching yourself go through the motions. It's really common with anxiety and depression.

Talking about it really helps. The medication can only do so much, talking helps you get in the correct mindset to allow yourself to actually work on getting better. It's also nice to be able to talk to people who actually get what you are going through. You don't have to explain it a thousand ways becaues they know, they have been through it. It's a good way to learn from other's experiences with similar problems. I love going to my group. It's a place where I actually feel welcomed and accepted.

[Zeus]

Kallie hit the nail on the head but I need to ask if you've talked with your doctor about all of this and if so, what does he say?  I would get into a therapy group who suffer from the same issues.  It will provide you with a tremendous amount of relief just talking about with others dealing with the same things you're grappling with.  Medications will help as well.  Talk to your doctor about which one is right for you.

[wilksdaman]

Yep, Ive spoken to a doctor, just received the letter for the therapy group yesterday, eager to talk to some people in the same situation!

What concerns me also is knowing that as it stands, now, I have a few options available, group therapy, medication etc... but what happens if I try these and they have little or no effect, crossing off one by one until i reach the point where there is nothing else to try and im stuck? That frightens me.

I yearn for the day when I look back on this rubbish and think, what the hell was THAT all about!?

[djomlacar]

greetings,wilksdaman,this is my first post on this forum,so I hope it will be helpfull.Also,I have to apologize in advance for any typing/grammar mistakes,since I am from Serbia.

I'm well aware of what you are talking about.Although I am experiencing depersonalisation mostly during panic attacks,it is significantly strong during "regular" days.Yes,even the simplest movement can feel weird,but in my case,not as simple as bringing a glass to mouth,so I'm afraid that your anxiety is more advanced than mine.But nevertheless,I'm sure you can work it through.Firstly,by all means you should visit that support group.Talking WILL do much,in my experience,much more than any medicine I have taken!In fact,one of the reason that keeps anxiety on high level is introversity - especially the part where we don't talk about our feelings and thoughts with other people.Keeping them inside never helps.On the other hand,there is no bad/wrong conversation about how you feel.Even if are not completely understood,it's always good to let it outside of your head.I know it's not always easy to do,since people are generally selfish and self-oriented,but then again,it's not their battle,it's yours.

Hope you will be feeling better soon,looking forward to read your post of improving