For Patricia Amber

[Gizmoman]

I sat in my kitchen table with a tear in my heart. A tear that had been there since a friend left my side. In my grief I looked to the sky and asked softly why? Above the sun and above the clouds a spot of light I could see floating down, down towards me. As it got closer I realized it wasn't a spot, but an angel. An angel that came down floating from the heavens. Through my window did this angel pass and stood right in front of me. She didn't say a word but motioned to her wings where i could see a tiny tear, like the one in my heart. She didn't have to tell me that with that tear she couldn't fly, so with the finest of threads I stitched up the tear as best as could be. The angel put her hand on my heart and told me not to be afraid, to forget my worries and sadness. Then she ascended up through window she first did pass and ever so gracefully floated back up to the heavens. And that is when I realized that the stitch was not for her, but for me. She had mended the tear in my heart without saying a thing. And from that moment on, I saw that the angel was not just any angel, but she was Patricia. An elegant angel sent to fix my broken heart and to let me know everything is good and how it should be now. Blessed are the angels sent to mend our broken hearts, may they fly through the heavens with peace and joy.

[MariaD]

that was beautiful giz  pat will appreciate it.
i like to think of pat as a beautiful butterfly,with tiny heart shapes on her wings where she keeps a piece of my heart.

[emotional]

pat you helped me in more ways you will ever know hun i hope you are at your happy place running and dancing and most importantly laughing about the time i had a ferry ticket in the fridge or you were coming up the motorway smashing into parked cars in your wheelchair.

take care my angel

lots of love from
 emo peemo xxx

[jane134]

Awww, that is beautiful, Giz.

Pat, i didn't know you very well but you always managed to bring a smile to my face whenever you was in the chatroom.  I was going to say that i hope you are behaving in your happy place but i doubt that very much lol. Thank you for all the gigges, Pat - you provided them every day, despite what pain/discomfort you might have been in.

Rest in Peace
x

[Tam0630]

Just how does one describe in a few words what kind of inspiration someone so full of life, love and joy gives people, in spite of the limitations on her physical, earthly body? There are no words.

To understand the kind of impact Pat had on those that came into contact with her, you had to know her. You'd have to had seen for yourself how selfless she was, how very determined she was to reach out to those around her and in spite of her own pain (which was so great none of us could even come close to imagining) to make people smile.

Pat was always giggling. She was always telling people that she hated to see anyone sad or in pain. She wanted only good things for people in spite of the fact that the world had been nothing but cruel to her. She saw good in everything in spite of having limited experience with "good" in her own life.

Pat is the absolute epitome of what I strive to be. She inspires me to be better and to look beyond myself to the world around me and reach out to those that need the love and support that only someone like Pat understood was possible.

Thank you God for setting Pat free. May she fly on the wings of that freedom for eternity and finally understand how it feels to experience the pure joy and happiness that she wanted so desperately for those around her. Envelop her in your grace and beauty and bless her soul as she watches over those that love and miss her.

Pat, I knew you only for a short time but in those few months that we talked you were, and continue to be, a great source of inspiration to me. You faced your pain and limitations with such grace and selflessness that it absolutely humbled me - and I remain humbled. You deserve only the best freedoms life (and eternal rest) has to offer and in my heart of hearts I believe your happy place will provide you with those freedoms. So spread your wings and fly, dear friend. As much as we miss you, we will be okay. We will take comfort in the fact that you are now home and you can dance on the wings of freedom.

I will leave you with these words from a song that I believe describes Pat so perfectly, Wind Beneath My Wings:


Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

[sixpack]

I am filled with sorrow.  Oh so sad, for us but Pat has been through so much in her short life.  Her soul is free.

[Reseenpanic]

I didnt know you for long. And the time that i did talk to you it wasnt who i was. I cant get the other day out of my head. You had just had a seizure and i was more worried about my problems. But yet you were still there for me. I was shaking a crying and i asked you to hold me and you said yes you would. You told me how you astral traveled and were there by my side. :) You then laughed and told me to remember that when u typed i needed to remeber that you had to go to your body at that time. I smiled. But you were telling me how you were holding me and it calmed me down. And then we talked about how i had seizures and i ended up having one. I remember waking up and the computer being there and i asked if you were there. You said yes. You were with me the whole time. You said i had a seizure and it only lasted for about 10 minutes but i was going to be ok becuase you were there. I told you the seizure made me tired and you said yes we should both get some sleep. You told me you would talk to me later. I told you i was going to lay down next to you and hold you just as you did the same for me. You asked me if i astral traveled to and i said yes :) I never knew that I would not talk to you again. But Thank you soooo much for holding me that last time. Ill never forget you or that day. I love you with all my heart.

[tigerpaw]

Lets try and have a memorial time next July 4th at 9:13 EST next year.

[Lanie]

I didn't know Patricia, but I remember her from the chatroom. She sounds like a wonderful, selfless person who cared deeply for the wellbeing of others. I am always amazed by the power of the human touch - that one person can touch so many lives, especially over the Internet, and bring compassion, kindness, and love through pain and suffering. I know that she is smiling down on all of you, watching over and protecting you always.

Rest in peace, Patricia Amber, and shine eternally in Heaven.


"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, but love leaves a memory no one can steal."

[loveautumn021]

This is so sad and heartbreaking! I know she is in a better place! RIP

[MariaD]

a week today pat you were passing over to your happy place.i felt like my heart had shattered into a million pieces,i felt like id lost one of my own children.the pain was unbearable.
i know your still around because you talk to me and tell me about your happy place and the things you can now see.i'm happy that you are now free from all your pain and suffering,but i also miss seeing your name in the chat room and i know now i'm not going to see it again.
i love you and miss you everyday and as they say time heals greif.you always humbled me with your love and thoughtfulness towards others.
you always wanted to help people you didn't want them to be sad.i could never give u a real hug and i so wanted to at times, wanted to heal your pain and suffering.if you hurt i did too.
our bond will never be broken and i will never forget the loving, giving ,mischievous, funny person you were.i know you are happy where you are and im happy for you.
i hope we meet again oneday till then love to you always xxxx
this song is for you!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1NAfU_DpY84&feature=channel#!q=Kina%20Grannis&st=disco

[torcgirl]

     Pat was such a gentle soul.  With all her problems she was always trying to help other people.  Its amazing that most of us take our lives which were pretty uncomplicated next to Pats, for granted.
     I sometimes wonder what Pat's purpose in life was since she had so much unhappiness in hers and pain, and then I think how she made others feel good.  Her purpose was to make all of us see that we need to rejoice in what we do have and how good most of us have it.  Love everyday and savor the simple things.  Dont complicate life.  There is a song that says "when you get a chance to sit it out or dance, I hope you'll dance".  Always dance and remember all the joys you do have in your life.  Hug your family , kiss your children and remember always to love, thats what Pat did.
     Thanks Gizzy for that beautiful poem you wrote, it made me cry.  I didnt know Pat long, but I'll always remember her strength.  I know wherever she is she is happy now.  She's dancing and eating pizza! 

[k48smith]

well i feel really bad for not postin to this thread before and to be honest i have tried i have just not found any words to write

still dont know what i think or how i feel about Pats escape to freedom but i thought i should post here that her cremation is on fri 16th at 2pm if anyone want to know


karl

[k48smith]

pic of pat as requested

[Turbotommy]

I love you Pat....God Bless

[dullmoon]

 Thank for posting the pic ! It really moved me..nice to put a face to one of the most wonderful persons . Thanks for all the giggles and good memories Pat !, you are missed by many

[sarey]

Wow... she passed away?
Oh my god...
She was such a lovely friend to me...
gosh...
R.I.P you beautiful girl, you were so amazing, so caring, compassionate...
I will miss our phone times.
xx

[k48smith]

Yesterday was Pats birthday, I really missed her. But I havent forgotten her. I took a walk to the gardens where her ashes were scattered. And just sat for a while. She was special.

[Grandma]

I miss Pat too, and I also miss you, Karl, and have not forgotten you either.  I hope that you are well.

Love, Grandma