Social Anxiety Disorder making my life harder

[Airborn]

I posted in GAD forum but since i was told i have social disorder i will make new topic here.

I am 19 years old, male, student.

I will point out few short examples of where this is bothering me, either in past experiences, etc.

Basicly for quite some time i thought that this is normal, afterall, everyone is a bit nervous when steping into class of full ppl for the first time, etc.
But with me, its to much.In school, when we were taking turns reading, when each student had to like, read his homework, or loudly do exercises from book, when i was waiting, i was sweating, shaking, my heart went crasy, my voice was shaking/fading.

Now i only take tests in school (main reason i left is, i couldnt handle this pressure every single day), and last time when i went, i did great in test writing.But the war my body had to go thru...i was sweating, again, my voice faded, shaked....my heart was beating soo hard my head was practicly bouncing up and down...

When i go out, if there is a friend with me, i usualy feel ok, even if there is more ppl, many times i feel just fine.

But on other hand, when i walk alone on street, when someone coming from my oposite way, my legs become light, i lose track of where i walk, i get totaly nervous, i dont know where should i look, i have feeling person coming is looking at me...If i am with friend or person i know, i dont have that problem, then i am very confident.

I am even nervous when i make calls.Like when i call for phone number information, or order pizza, make doctor apoinment, basicly, i always have glass of water with me, i write down what i have to say, i repeat itself few times, walk back and forth...

Right now me and my gf are talking bout me coming and spending summer with her and her parents at their home.And just thought of it makes me almoast pass out..When i come there i dont want to be nervous.If i am like this, they will think sth is wrong, or that i am not self confident.

Ppl around me wouldnt belive me if i told them i have social disorder, i told few of my family members and it took me lot of time to convince them.Why ? Because i hide it well, i talk a lot around ppl, even ppl i dont know, i make jokes, ppl usualy laugh, listen to me, i am talkative person.But inside i am practicly tearing apart every time i do it.And when there is no one i know around.....i become totaly difrent person.

I decided i have had enough, i want to change this, because it is ruining my life.I would like those of you who know how to solve this, give me a few pointers.Today i am going to doctor and i will also share this with him.I am ready to confort this illnes and i will win.

Sincerely, Airborn

[Kitty_]

I know exactly how that feels (but, most people would in the SAD forums.) I can talk relatively un-anxiously in my last class with other people around my BFF, but in other classes I usually ignore them.

My advice to to do every small thing (-_- I can't think how to word that better) in a conversation that you can.

Got to run!
-Kitty_

[jony]

I also know how it feels. For me, it started in the last couple of years at college. Now at work it has gotten worse and its affecting me at work. I get really nervous, begin to shake, my voice breaks whenever im in a meeting or when attention is on me.
Any recommendations on what to do to? This is affecting my life to the point that i could loose my job. Its so embarrasing.

[beautifully_anxious]

I so know how you feel. Read what I posted (it's my story). I hate that EVERYONE IS STARING AT ME.... ALL THEY ARE LOOKING AT IS ME!!!! But if I am with a good friend and I am comfortable around her then I am ok. I could never ever go to a bf's house for the summer. I just couldn't do it. I feel the same way. I am going to say or do something and they will all laugh at me. They won't like me. I can't do it. I wish there was some way to get over this feeling. It sucks and no body understands it!!!! They all think I am a freak!

[lonelygurl]

I know how u feel. I hate talking to on the phone and usually text or email ppl. My friends and fam are not happy with this and dont understand me. I wish I could get help for this problem too. I cant go out by myself unless its really late or someone is with me. I feel like everyone is looking at me and judging me. I cant even walk right so I just stay home all day long. I feel safe there. I wish I could help, but i need help myself  I just wanted u to know that ur not alone