the movie "analyze this" and fear of suffering

[Daisy131]

ok so last night i needed some comic relief, and totally got it from "analyze this." it's basically about a mafia guy who has panic attacks.

but then i realized something- i had a little bit of a breakthrough.

i think my fear/obsessions/GAD is all very much centered around fear of death/suffering. in college, i lost 3 grandparents, my aunt, 2 great aunts, my cousin and my best friend. two of which were sudden, the rest of which were long suffering illnesses. i don't think i ever really recovered, or really DEALT with the loss, and i'm wondering if it's just now (several years later) manifesting in GAD/panic attacks/HA?

anyone have anything similar?

[dbirm77]

Daisy131,

It's funny you should mention this today.
I have recently been reflecting on the "birth" of my anxiety.
My initial anxiety onset follwed the death of my uncle last year.

I lost both my parents by the time I was 18.
I don't think I ever really dealt with their deaths.
It is only now that I feel like I have the emotions to properly deal with it.
In a weird way, I have anxiety to thank for that.

I used to be the type of person that buried every feeling or emotion.
I now see how important it is to allow yourself to process these life events.

Thanks for this post.

Drew

[brintee]

This is so weird. I realized this just yesterday. There are feelings that I never truley dealt with that I can now see how they led to all of this. Im afraid of suffering and death and mostly because I used to watch my mom suffer with anxiety/depression. I need to watch this movie I think 

[denirig]

I know that I have suffered alot of loss over the past three years as well. My husband lost his job then a few months later we lost his brother to cancer, then my father got diagnosed with cancer, my grandmother died, then this past September my father lost his battle with cancer. With these events happen one after another after another I did not have time to process it all, causing the anxiety to fly to new levels. I am just now getting things back under control and starting to live my life again.

[AlleyCat]

I think this is also true for me and I have suspected it for awhile.  I mean we all have loved ones that pass, I guess some of us don't really know how to deal with it I guess.  I had a grandmother pass abruptly from a brain aneurysm (sp?), my favorite boss was fatally shot and I had just spoken with him hours earlier.  My best friend died abruptly when she went in to have her gall bladder taken out.  My step-father just passed a couple of years ago with a long hard fought battle with a Parkinsons like illness.  That one was the hardest because I had to basically watch him die.  He was mentally there but couldn't talk or do anything for himself.  It was especially hard the day he died with the ambulance and my mother freaking out.  I hate to even think about it now.  I have had many more loved ones pass but those were the hardest to deal with.  That is not to mention all my precious furbabies that are like my family that have passed too (that may seem silly to some, but they are like my children to me)  Anyway, you are not alone by any means.  I really don't know how to deal with it myself.  I just push it out of my mind as much as possible.