Obesophobia

[ConstantWorrier]

My specific phobia, may sound really strange to some, but to others, I'm sure they can relate.
I have Obesophobia. Fear of gaining weight..
I'm weigh 138 lbs. But I feel as thought I'm much bigger. I constantly put myself down and say how fat I am. But something that would definitely trigger it, is I suffered with Anorexia in the 7th grade, and although it's something I'll never get over, I still eat my meals and occasional snacks. I am a health food nut, and I don't much care for fattening foods (fast food being one.)
I don't know what to do to combat these feelings of being fat. My boyfriend is super supportive and always tells me how beautiful I am. I'm not fat, but I feel like it.
What can I do?? 

[xxblacklush]

I suffer from Ana as well. You don`t suffer from it anymore though correct?

I`ve suffered from Ana since I was sixteen. I don`t eat much if anything at all. I am 110 pounds && I`m 5'4" My lowest weight was 93 pounds, && I was in rehab for this for a little less then two years. Nothing really helped me as I`m still suffering/trying to recover from it so I won`t try to load you with a bunch of bullshit that I was forced to listen to in rehab.

However what worked for me is not weighing myself anymore, I actually got rid of every scale in my apartment && every full body mirrors, I only had little ones where I could see my face, I also tried eating a little bit more each time I ate to where as I would actually finish a full meal. Sometimes I would just go && unfortunately throw it up but no one said trying to recover from Ana is easy. Also whenever you are thinking about your weight go take a hot bath or a long jog, that`s helped me as well.

You should listen to your boyfriend, && you shouldn`t feel ashamed to be called beautiful. I`m sure you are inside && out. As you grow up you will love yourself more && more.

I think we have a lot in common Constant Worrier, It`s starting to scare me!

- Amanda.

[ConstantWorrier]

With me, I hardly ever weigh myself. Which is a good thing, when I see a scale though, I am so compelled to get on one. When I suffered with Anorexia (Not suffering anymore, though occasionally I relapse but I can build myself up better now) I would always look at myself in the mirror and just feel disgusting. But, when I can make it to where I think my body looks good, thats a big accomplishment for my day. :)

By the way, my name is Kelli. I'm 16 and I live in Maine.
It does seem like we have a lot in common!

Thank you so much for all your help!
I'm going to really enjoy talking to you!

[xxblacklush]

That`s really good you don`t weigh yourself much or at all, I used to weigh myself whenever I would eat just a little or drink just a little. I weighed myself approx. 30+ times a day when I was having a hard time with my Ana. But since I have no scales in my apartment I don`t weigh myself anymore. Only when I have to go to the doctor`s office for physicals && such, but I close my eyes so I don`t see what the scale has to tell me .

I agree with you though, it`s probably one of the best days of my life when I can look down at myself && like what I see, even if it`s just for a moment. But like you more bad days rather then good but it will get better.

Maine?! I used to live in Bath. Do you live close by there? I only lived there for a summer then moved back to Duluth so I wasn`t there very long. It`s a beautiful place to live compared to Duluth!

Kelli is a pretty name too. && no problem, I hope to talk to you more && more!

[ConstantWorrier]

I live in a very small town up North of Maine. But I have been to Bath a few times. In and around there. It is a very beautiful place to live, but kind of boring sometimes.

[pippip]

Never say never. Have you ever tried Therapy?