Recent Anxiety: Lost & Alone

[FiGaDoWdMe]

I have been dealing with my anxiety sufficiently lately when before it had been unbearable. I was able to go to school almost all the time before spring break (I'm a senior in high school) and my anxiety has been minimal. This might be due to me being on Zoloft and BuSpar but I'm not totally sure. A lot of times the medication doesn't make me feel good and I don't feel like myself. Sometimes it makes me feel like I am living in a dream. Today I woke up at 12 p.m. which is a lot later than I usually sleep until and I have had a weird feeling on my chest all day. Like things are not alright. That they aren't OK. I am worried that I am going to die soon. That I am going to go insane. It's a very uneasy feeling and I am worried that my anxiety is going to come back in a very bad way. I have a lot of stress on my shoulders right now and have a lot of harsh feelings from my past. My life is by no means very hard but it is also by no means very easy. I just feel like I am the only person here on earth right now that feels like I do. I don't like feeling alone and I'm sure no one does. I have a lot of people that love me and a lot of friends but is it real? Does it hold sustenance? Or is it all fake. Am I living in a fake world, shrouded by the mists of insecurity every single day. Everyone wanting to succeed in school, but what for? Since when does your ability to study and pay attention determine your level of intelligence? When does getting a good grade on a test that mostly tests for logic affect your whole entire life ahead of you? Not when I suppose but why? I feel lost and alone.

[Warbirdwf]

Hey-

Reading your post, it's obvious that your anxiety is at a higher level than normal. Everything you said in your statements sounded like they came from someone dealing w/high anxiety. My thoughts get way out of whack when my anxiety is high. You thoughts simply become irrational, cut and dry.

Here's the good news. All this is being caused by anxiety! Anxiety is very treatable and I can tell you I recovered from it when I was in my early 20's. You're not alone in this condition. Millions of Americans deal with this. Does it suck? Absolutely!

You should talk to your doctor/psychiatrist about how your feeling with the current meds you're taking. Are you doing any therapy? Many people get put on the road to recovery by a good therapist that helps (in some cases) identify what's causing your anxiety.

It gets better my friend, I promise. I've had some really tough times the past 8 months but am now experiencing good days!
Keep your chin up and learn all you can about anxiety. Knowledge takes the fear away from this condition!