cant log into chatroom. on a bus . using cellphone. IM GOING CRAZY. PLEASE HELP.

[Tina20]

I have never felt this bad before.  I need every single person in here that reads this to please write something. Im GOING NUTS. I have random thoughts going through my mind. I feel like im going crazy. Im scared about diseases. Im scared of this bus. I feel like its going t00 fast. Im TERRIFED. Im scared of everything! :[[ please somebody help me. JUST TALK TO ME! I DONT WANT TO TEXT MY FRIENDS. THEY DONT KN0W IM A PSYCHO. :[[[N0ne of my friends act this way. im scared! its raining hard and im worried we mite crash. im worried about hepititis cuz my creepy boss has it and i was always around him. and im afraid i have it to! PLEASE. I DONT WANT TO FREAK OUT EVERY0NE ON THE BUS. . . I dont want to break down. some talk to me.

[sixpack]

Tina

You are having a panic attack.  Try and relax.  Close your eyes and breathe in and out slowly.  Tell yourself that BEASTY is mucking with you.  The thoughts and fears you are having are not reality they are just anxious thoughts.

You are going to be fine.

[heartyworrier]

Yes! BREATHE... slow deep breaths.  close your eyes and tell yourself I will not let this get the better of me! I am OK. 

[Tina20]

these thoughts make me sick. i feel mentally sick! why do i feel like i hate everyone around me. i feel like i hate life. i couldnt breathe! u have no idea how many thoughts were running through my mind. i have so many things im scared and worried about. i just dont know where to start? why cant i just be a happy 22 year old? why cant i be like my friends? i hate this! N0 ONE CAN CURE ME!

[heartyworrier]

Have you tried talking to a counselor?  I recently started and it really helps.  You are not uncurable... don't say that.  I know when you are in the middle of panic it feels like a hopeless spiral.  But giving in and letting anxiety win is not an option for me.  Please don't give up.

[jesshoo37660]

I sympathize with you.  I know what you are going through.  I wake up every morning feeling scared and I dont know what I am scared of.  This feeling you are having right now is a panic attack.  You feel like you are losing your mind and going crazy.  People at home tell me to just "snap out of it" but it is harder said than done.  You're going to be just fine.  Just keep telling yourself that.  Try to occupy your mind with something else.  It will pass.

[Tina20]

yes thats what my mom says to snap out of it and she is mean and says i act like a little baby. she told me theres people out there that have real diseases and i need to grow up. i mean i love my mom but i wish she could be more understanding. it feels like my throat is tightening and closing up. and idk if im having another panic attack. it feels like i have more then just hypochondria. it feels like my hypo has caused me to have depression and lack of apitite and lack of sleep. and i feel like im a nutcase! ! i want to go to A PSYCHWARD CUZ IM HOPELESS. I dont know what to be worried about first!

[Tina20]

i keep worrying about my family. . when i see little kids i feel sad because i Remember when i was 8 and my life was so great and worry free. n0w im a uncontroable meSs. im convinced i have some disease. :[[

[Tina20]

i dont have money for a counsler. thats why im here. :[ praying for someone on here to help me become sane.  i really kn0w im not normal in the head.

[jesshoo37660]

I am 25.  I almost entered myself into a psycho ward b/c I felt like I was losing my mind and going out of control.  But were not CRAZY we have anxiety!  it feels too physical to be anxiety and it is hard for me realize that sometimes as well.  my throat feels tight alot too.  the more i think about it the worse it gets.  all i ever hear is "it's all in your head" from my family.  but no one else knows what we r going through.  it's easy for them to say that.  I look at people and think how lucky they are to be normal.  they dont know what it feels like to be constantly worried and scared.  

you are not alone.  we all have the same feelings you have.  ive been doing better since last year, but we all have our slips, that's why i have been on here all night.  you are not CRAZY and don't think u need to get 'checked in' somewhere b/c u DONT.  were just anxious people, not crazy people.

[Tina20]

it feels like ive been cursed. but im glad im not alone. i keep wishing this is a bad nitemare il wake up fr0m. but im stil living in hell.

[heartyworrier]

You definetly are not alone.  I have done the same thing as far as looking at other people and thinking "WHY" ?  Why can't I be so happy and seem not to have a care in the world.  I totally get it and I know that it is hard to have people tell you to just quit.  Well if we could just quit I am sure most of us would!!   You aren't crazy.  Anxiety is a ruthless beast.

[Tina20]

i wish i knew what caused this. was it something that scared me when i was young? ive had hypochondria since i was in middle school. i just dont understand what is a real symptom and what is in my head.

[loveautumn021]

Oh hunny! I totally understand what you are going through! I feel like this all the time too and it just takes time. When I am really over whelmed like you are right about now I close my eyes take several deep deep breaths and tell myself slowly several times I am going to be okay...after I do that I ususally am a little more calmer and I get myself to a place where I can focus on what I enjoy doing like chatting online, watching a good movie, talking on the phone with someone, working out, going shopping...ect. ect. just anything that you like! I hope you get better and I am here if you everr need to chat...<3<3

[CoolCalmAndCollected]

I wish you guys wouldn't try to make a distinction between people who go into a hospital and people who don't as "not crazy" and "crazy."  I did go into a hospital for a week and I don't think I'm crazy or anyone else there was, either.  I guess they do separate out people with various disorders, though, and I was in a "short stay" ward.   I had severe anxiety to the point that I was having trouble eating and sleeping.  There was a medication issue that made it worse and I'm pretty sure that's part of why I had to go into the hospital.

Anyway, it's not a bad thing or a "psycho ward" even if in a psychiatric ward of a hospital.  Forget stereotypes and movies.  Surprisingly there was absolutely no one wanting to make me talk about things or probe my mind; it was more like getting some better meds and getting out.  I'm trying to let people know it's not bad (so there's nothing to fear if you find yourself in that situation - and nothing to deride, either, although I'm sure no one really meant it that way.     I'm just saying if it came to that, no one would treat you like a crazy person, not in the least, and people like us are a dime a dozen there in both inpatient and outpatient settings, so they basically find meds that help, and then set you up with someone to see on an outpatient basis so you can get to feeling better even faster.  Anyway, I doubt you'd have to get that kind of treatment, anyway.  It sounds like you need someone to talk to, though.

I'm really sorry that no one in your family is understanding.  Do you see a family doctor?  Pediatrician if you are that young?  (sorry, I didn't catch your age).  I'm sure that talking to a doctor would get you on the right track to getting some help. 

[tmicrowave]

i hope you feel better and hope you made it through
be proud of yourself for gettin through it bus rides can be pretty awful im sure

[MissHypo89]

gosh, you sound like me in january. i absolutely know how you feel, its an awful feeling. i ended up in the hospital because my health anxiety was so bad. im so sorry you went through this. i hope you are feeling better. i rec. seeing a therapist, and maybe go on some meds to help your anxiety. im on anafranil and seroquel, and it seems to be helping.  i know you will be okay. take it one day at a time

[Jorden_M]

Whoah there tiger! Your fine honey. Focus on that breathing.deep, slow breath in, then breath out slowly as well. I hate bus's too. I have bad agoraphobia abd had to take the bus all the way downtown less than a week ago and believe me, I thought I was going to lose it too... I couldn't stop figiting with literally everything! My wife had to start rubbing my hands to get me to stop. Lol. It was bad. But fortunately it does get better. You certainlt don't have tp try this but it has always helped me.. Here's a suggestion... My wife and I have tried this and actually, it worked not only for my agoraphobia/panic disorder..but for my depression as well. Anytime u feel anxious in the slightest..try journaling about it...write down what symptoms your feeling and what thoughts are going through ur head. Then try figure out why it is you feel this way, write that down too. Now here's the kicker.. When your done... Re think your symptoms, write down why you shouldn't feel the way u do. Talk yourself out of it. Here's an example.. You thought the bus was going too fast right? Well here's this... Don't u think at least someone on the bus would have said something if he were? Here's another idea of something u could write as a "downer" from the anxiety. I don't think he'd have his license if he were speeding, or this is all my anxiety, then refer to your symptoms u already wrote as proof to yourself. I actually bring my anxiety journal everywhere with me... Brings me down quicker than any drug could. (My opinion not a fact)it usually will bring me down within ten minutes. I'm a visual person, I can't calm down solely off someone saying "oh jorden calm down your fine, there's nothing to be afraid of." That just irritates me lol.I calm down by touch (back rubs most likely) and by the visual. (Seeing why I can calm down)  I once actually had to drive to the hospital so I could go in just in case I needed a med. Ten min after I got there... I felt as if nothing happened..obnoxious really. Lol.