Its crazy finding a person who has the same feelings. I seriously thought I was alone. It really started like 2 years ago, but only when I smoked weed, and still kinda only when I smoke weed. I mean I still think about it when I'm sober, but for some reason it doesn't freak me out as much and I can get over it and be my "normal" self.
But I really think its our spirit. I mean it feels that way to me, because when I feel it I feel like my body is just some vessel that I can involuntarily control. I mean what if its just us as are spirit self realizing we are in this human body and in this physical dimension.
It really got bad a few weeks ago when I saw a home video of myself when I was like 11. After I watched it it just hit me. The thought that we get old and can't go back to when we were younger and the simple thought of time itself and the ability to think about when we were younger, but not being able to physically revisit that time. After that simply thought it just opened up a can worms and I began thinking about my heart and how it's inside of my chest beating. After that it felt like I was having a mini heart attack or something and that I was actually dying.
I know it sounds crazy, but it's really just the human brain think TOOOO hard. I mean when I'm in public sometimes it really feels like I'm the Matrix and this is just a simulation. Like everyone around me are just robots. Maybe the person behind that movie has the same type of phobia we have, who knows. I know I'm not crazy though, just thinking "out of the box" so to speak. That or I'm seeing live as a spirit being. Either way it helps me calm down a except this physical realm. So much it makes me believe that whatever I do will shape how successful or unsuccessful I am in what we perceive as "life" or "reality". Actually writing this post is helping me solidify this thoughts even further.
I am just happy I'm not alone. There has been 47K views on this post so WE are not alone!