Why does this HA keep kicking me in the butt????

[panicky]

It just makes me so upset.  I feel like crying right now!!! I can't stand this feeling creeping through my body all the time.  I get upset about the pain in my elbow, then I keep thinking about, it feels worse, and then the panic grows and grows and my mind races and races thinking of the horrible outcomes.  It is like a terror that I feel running through my veins.  I don't know why I have to feel this way.  I feel so good for so long, and then it's like I get hit with a bolt of lightening and my whole outlook changes.  I am so happy when I am not thinking about this stuff, when I can actually plan things for the future.  Then when I feel like this, I can't even think about the future.
I guess I will pray and hope that I feel better soon.  The only people that can understand are you here on this board. Just wish I knew what the reason behind HA is, why with all the advancements in healthcare today, can't they find out what causes this and make some kind of meds that can handle this!!!!
Sorry, I am venting because I feel very fearful right now.

[pale-horse]

I wish I knew how to help you, and me. I feel the exact same way. It's like I don't how else to be. It feels sort of like drowning in an ocean full of waves sometimes. For a minute your head is above water and you can see the shore, and then WHAM! I hate it, I really do. So many things in my life require a certain degree of confidence to be good at, and this problem we have has certainly diminished my ability to do those things well.

I just wish I could get out of this thing for good.

[panicky]

I hear ya, and if I find out any secrets, I'll let you know!!!!

[txpenguin07]

Hey there,

I'm completely in the same boat with you and understand exactly what you're going through.  My good days are so good that it makes the bad days seem that much worse.  I feel like I'm under attack sometimes.

I'm going to see a psychologist for all of this mess for the first time tomorrow-  if I get any good insight, I'll post back to you.

Good luck and God bless you...

[JBTao]

I am starting to think this condition will only go away once we accept it. Accept that if we WERE dying, which we probably aren't, we'd be dying, and there'd be no way to change that. Accepting that will make the fear go away, and fear is the fuel in the motor of anxiety.

[panicky]

Thanks for your answers guys.  Sometimes it just helps to talk with people that understand what you're going thru!!! Just to hear what you have to say helps me to feel that I'm not alone!!!